Don't punish yourself when you look in the mirror. Don't punish yourself when you binge. Treat yourself with kindness. This is an addiction. Yes, it's very different than the normal things we would call addictions because so much of it is psychological, but it is what it is. There are people that have absolutely no problem with moderation and never find themselves in that binge mode where your mind doesn't even make rationalizations about what you're doing, but just shuts down and accepts. Unfortunately, we seem to have an issue with that. An argument with our logical side that always seems to fail.

I get where you're coming from. I honestly do. I constantly feel like I'm on the verge of giving up completely. I give up, I binge, I say that this is it for the rest of my life and that I'm going to eventually become trapped in a prison of my own doing. But honestly, that's just the depression that comes from binging. They go hand in hand for so many. You can treat that, though. The feelings of inadequacy, stress, and exhaustion from spending all your waking moments thinking about food or food related things... that's all temporary. As much as it sucks right now and can make you feel like it's never ending, it will end as soon as you allow for it to happen.

You can break this cycle for good. There are people out there with far more substantial addictions to narcotics, for instance. Years and years of use and abuse, and yet through perserverance and a lot of blood, sweat, and many many tears, they got through it. Everyone is capable of change. If there are people out there that can bring themselves up from what can be the lowest lows, you can do this. You can at least get yourself to stop binging as often. You can at least make it one week. You can at least make it one day. And honestly, that's all it takes. One single day at a time.

Don't think about having to lose 100lbs for instance. Think about having to lose 10lbs. Then when you meet that, do it again. And then again. If you let yourself be put off because it's a long journey, you're eliminating a lot of beautiful experience from your life. There's so much out there that's worth the long and arduous journey.

Just believe in yourself and use coping methods. Self nurture with a pedicure, manicure, new haircut, massage, whatever else when you're feeling a binge coming on. Distract yourself with a phone call to a friend or a trivia game on your phone. Oftentimes, binges come up when you're avoiding something you don't want to do. Pull that bandaid off and do something you've been putting off for ages. The feeling of accompilshment beats the feeling of a binge by a long shot.

You're definitely not alone! I feel hopeless and want to give up a lot of the time...but I don't. I wish I had all the answers but I do not. I also recommend reading "Brain Over Binge".