Hi
I would read any and every staying on track tip (regardless of type of diet or lifestyle) and try to find ones you can try that may work for you.

I didn't stay on track and am having my second sleeve op (12 Nov 2014) my first was in 2006.

Try some of the following
- make sure most of your meals are planned - don't wing it
- track everything that goes in your mouth
- portion out everything so you know what sizes work with your pouch and only have that knowing that it is enough
- try to figure out why you want bigger portions (emotionally)
- question your reasoning or need for anything extra
- time your bites, time the space between bites
- don't do anything else while eating (eg talking, watching telly etc, just focus on eating)
- be planned 80% of the time - then have a break - then get back on track
- if you can drink with meals now, use the liquid to fill you up after you have reached a certain portion
- try to make a negative association with eating more and feeling uncomfortable or regretting it - mentally picture where you were and that you don't want to be there again

More ideas
- make a list of all the reasons you wanted to do this are they still true for you?
- make a list of all the positive effects of post op life that you may lose if you overeat
- put a post it note, sticker or some sort of visual cue somewhere, so that everytime you see that, you make a mental note to choose the options that work best for you and your health
- if you slip up - cut yourself some slack and get back to things right away, don't postpone getting back to the lifestyle you want - live meal by meal
- if there is only a particular type of food that makes you eat more than you want to or should, can you limit access to it
- if you are eating out with a supportive person, tell them how much you need to eat and ask them to help you be accountable to yourself. (not someone who is going to be mean or going to tell you to eat whatever you want)

I'm sorry- that's a hard place to be, but I like Qski's tips....I'm prone to pushing things too- and have not missed logging/ tracking/ weighing food in 205 days b/c I know that's what it takes to keep on track and not undo all this work. The planning helps too- once I veer off of course, I tend to continue a downward spiral of bad choices. I also remind myself that a bad day can be just a bad day- and does not mean that I can't course correct and still make my goals.

Sounds like you are medicating with food. I recommend therapy with someone who specializes in addiction. It is not how or what you are eating, it is why you are eating. If you never fix the why nothing else will work. 90% of this is mental. the surgery, as my surgeon loves to say" is only 10% of your wt loss process"

I second what Ronnie and Mango said! I put off surgery until I had therapy to deal with my issues that led me to being nearly 400 lbs. I knew that unless I got things straight in my head and in my heart, nothing was going to work, not even surgery.