My Grandmother passed on the 7th at midnight in her bed alongside her husband.

So of course the next day was a mad dash of laundry and a lot of apology emails to clients, the the next morning I was with my family and on the road to southern California for the funeral. We were their for a week with all our family so I had no way of getting on.

I kept up with my tracking but circumstance meant that most days I was over my goal. I have no real issue with it, it's what I expected. Between being busy all day, eating all breakfasts at the hotel, and most lunches and dinners at the retirement home my focus wasn't on hitting my calorie mark. I wasn't emotionally eating (though that would have been easy to do), I just gave myself the week off. I don't exactly cary a food scale around with me and I wasn't about to whip out my cell phone in the middle of a dinning hall with the 15 members of my extended family to figure out my meal plan. I got in a lot of walking but the only night I could muster the energy to exercise was also the night before the viewing and I had a splitting headache that was only made worse by the treadmill.

So I don't think I gained anything or lost anything over the week. Or at leas thats what I am telling myself. It seriously doesn't matter as its what I expected, It's just thrown me out of sorts. I've had more soda then I have in a long time.

The good bit is I got to see all my extended family after such a long time and meet the three new family members that I hadn't meet yet. My youngest 10yo cousin, my eldest cousins husband (I couldn't make it to their weeding 7 years ago (god they look to young to be married) for some lame excuse. I think I said exams for college but I think in reality it was the social anxiety and being disgusted with myself for my weight and not fitting into any of my nice cloths. The irony now...), and their child, my cousin once remove and my grandmothers great grandson. We had a lovely time together and playing many games of farkle.

But I am back now and everything is a total 360. The past week has been hurry up wait and now I am back full speed to work. This is usually the busiest time of year for me and missing a week has made it worse. So instead of being able to get back to my normal routine I am in rush mode. I haven't been on a bike in nearly two weeks and the weather isn't helping in that regard, not that it matters, I have too much work to be able to hit the road before the sun sets at 5pm.

We will be skipping christmas this year. We couldn't really afford the trip down for the funeral to begin with (I offered to help financially but of course they didn't want that) and now my parent's are going down to be with my grandfather for christmas (he doesn't want to celebrate either for obvious reasons). I'm happy to fly down their for the holidays but it's not really that kind of trip. They are checking in on him and their will be plenty enough to deal with. So hopefully I can use that time to have another adventure and get out from under this work and the stress.

Back to retouching christmas pictures... oh joy.

Any who thats my story.