I am a fairly new mom. My daughter was born last January with many medical issues. We spent 5 months in the hospital. I was about 3 hours from home and always afraid to leave my baby girls side, even to use the bathroom. I had no home cooked meal for 5 months, all fast food. It was so bad the employees at chipotle knew me by first name. We are now home and she still has many medical needs that i do from home. A few weeks ago i was doing laundry and put on a pair of shorts hidden in the back of my dresser. (I remembered why they were there, they were too loose and always fell down no matter how many times i tied them.) Well i put these shorts on and now they are so tight i dont need to adjust or worry about them falling down. I broke down crying and i asked myself "how could you let youself go like this?" All my time was devoted to taking care of my daughter and her needs. But how can i fully be there for her if im to tired after eating a family sized bag of hot cheetos? How could i teach her to love herself if her mom couldnt do the same.. I had no motivation until i put those dang shorts on. I just want to lose this weight but i have no time to step into a gym. I want to do this. I need to do this. I dont want to cry everytime i put on a pair of shorts. I am always told how beautiful i am but i just cant see it. My mom is always afraid for me to go on a diet because i used to be anorexic. I dont want to be a stick figure i just want to look good and comfortable in my own skin!!!!!! Advice is more than welcome. At home exercise routines, healthy meals. Thank you