Hi there...I had to look up your previous post to remember where you were starting from. I think I'll give you most of the same advice I gave you before. You're doing great increasing your calories. Again, even at 113 pounds, you are still on the low end of a healthy weight, so there is absolutely no need for you to lose any weight. I know in your mind you're struggling with wanting to be at that lowest weight you've been before, but it was truly too low of a weight. If I remember right, I think you were at 110 already when you started increasing your calories, correct? Most of what you had gained back from your 105ish number was from holiday eating, wasn't it? So in reality, since you've started increasing your calories, you've been fluctuating at the most 3 pounds, which is completely normal and expected and actually very minimal for someone with your history (very low calorie for extended time - losing almost 100 pounds). You also said you had a high sodium weekend which I'm sure is contributing to your bloating. I think you should be very proud for increasing your calories. The best thing you could do for yourself would be to stay at your current eating level until your weight stabilizes and then continue to push it higher until you reach your TDEE, which I believe was 1800-1900. Then continue to eat at that level for life! You should never have to restrict your calories again. You are at a healthy weight. If you've got some trouble spots you are trying to make smaller, simply eat at maintenance and focus on your weight training and increasing your weights. You will reshape your body while eating at maintenance calories.

In your previous post, you mentioned seeing a counselor...did you do this and what help did they offer?

Well, sometimes we all just have those weeks where we feel "off" and discontent with ourselves. Try not to let it spin you out of control as I'm sure next week you'll be feeling lean again. It's funny how our emotions and the way we feel one day can really make us question whether what we are doing is the right thing. I think if you'll stick to it and give your body more time to adjust, you'll begin to feel better.