gotobedhungry wrote: »

Find a therapist? 800 is already too low to be healthy. 600 will be worse. I did 300-800 for years and it wasn't good. Not to say that I've got all my *kitten* together. But still, I know that's what you should do... You know deep down that you need to get some help.

That is good advice. I see a therapist now. Also I suffer from severe anxiety and depression and I think it started with my unhealthy eating habits. It's like you go along eating low calories and think everything is okay until your body starts falling apart. I broke bones very easily (my t12 and my ribs) from things that shouldn't have broken them. I was tired and depressed. I isolated. My hair on my face grew white fuzz probably to keep me warm. I had chest pain, brittle hair and bad breath. So now I know it's not worth it. It all catches up to you.

Good for you for going into treatment. It's hard to give up your control. I understand about going over an amount like 1000 and gaining. That is why my nutritionist is helping me rev up my metabolism so my body reacts to food correctly...burns it! I too started at 900 cals a day and am now at 1300, just about to start 1400 and I haven't gained. It's hard to trust. Keep working at it.

Have you seen the nutritionist yet?

I think when I went through IOP I had to just give my trust over to them. I saw great results with other people. What did I have to lose? I was pretty much at rock bottom. I'm working on trust with my psychologist. She says that if I work on stopping my negative thoughts about myself, eventually they will be less and less. It's hard for me to trust her. I'm just saying I know how you feel, but to get maximum benefits one has to give up some of their control.

Great points nony. What do you do for a living? You are really good with your words and helping people.

And again, you are helping you. You are still here, you are doing your IOP, and you are seeing the nutritionist, even though all of those things are scary.

Yes, I am absolutely, 100% sure . There could be loads of reasons why your weight was up this morning. Weight fluctuates an actually quite impressive amount from day to day, it's not linear. This is why I think you should put the scales away, or at least only weigh once a week, because you're not able to handle those normal day to day fluctuations.

Just look at Minipony, she has slowly increased her intake under the guidance of her nutritionist, and hasn't gained weight doing it.

In terms of why you would gain water weight when you increase calories, I think I'm right that an increase in carbs will initially result in some fluid retention (please don't take this to mean you should limit carbs!! It's temporary), also there's a good chance that with undereating you are chronically dehydrated, we get a lot of our water from food, so you will retain fluid because that's a natural defense mechanism.

Honestly, the physical effects of what you are doing are just horrendous (if you want me to do the tough love thing and get more blunt with what is going to happen to your body just say!), not to mention the mental/emotional effects. You will cope a lot better with everything when you are properly nourished.

Another damn good reason to work on that increase back to 1200 cals, if the MFP mods read that you are severely restricting it's highly likely that they will ban you for promoting a very low cal diet (even if that's not what you are actually doing), and there goes one of your support avenues. That's a pretty good reason to eat more, yes?