I'm pretty happy. I have muscled my weigh through binges with nasty self talk but this morning I actually thought my way out of one. I was done with a yummy planned meal when I thought 'screw it I'm having peanut butter toast on that fresh yummy bread. I can watch things tomorrow and just enjoy this day', I had the toaster out and bread in it when i stopped myself with the question 'why'. I realized not only wasn't I hungry but I was tired, bored, cold, alone and spending to much time thinking about food. I then reminded myself that I didn't have to gorge myself at the moment with food I wasn't even hungry for but could wait until later in the day when my appetite returned and truly enjoy the food if I chose to. I put everything away, turned on the heat and took my dogs for a walk around the block. I also reminded myself I have a house full of wonderful food that I can enjoy later when I can truly enjoy every bite. As someone who has never thought through a binge rationally I feel so happy. I realize I have a long way to go but Rome wasn't built in a day!