So this is my first post here, hi I'm Amy. I've used MFP in the past (once lost 90 lbs!) but of course as soon as I stopped watching calories and logging exercise it was easy to slip back into old habits. I started noticing that my clothes were getting tight again and I had to go up a size when I bought capris for the summer. I was reluctant to see what that meant on the scale. But last week I finally bit the bullet and checked. 301.5. Even then looking at a number I'd never seen on the scale it didn't seem to register. When I weighed yesterday morning I had dipped down to 296.5 (probably because I weighed before I ate, etc) after watching what I was eating a little more carefully this past week. But my son had sent me a gift card so I thought maybe I'll go get a summer dress. My darling husband helped me pick out a very cute dress and I stepped into the dressing room to try it on. After I thought I had myself pulled together I walked back out and hung up the dress with hubby looking at me like he knew there was something wrong. "I don't want to look at clothes anymore" I told him and then he just hugged me while I broke down in tears in the middle of the store. I can't do this anymore. I can't do it to myself. I deserve better than what I have done to myself. I don't deserve to cry after trying on clothes. I am worth more than this. So I'm here. And I am going to do better.