Very happy with the scale this morning! Pumped to start week 2!!!

I have been having the WORST allergies, and work has decided to suddenly give me a million more responsibilities, and I have a mouseguest.

Gym today is going to be very needed.

Met water goal and walked 40 minutes. Feeling good.

kailadriel wrote: »

I have been having the WORST allergies, and work has decided to suddenly give me a million more responsibilities, and I have a mouseguest.

Gym today is going to be very needed.

Good for you going to the gym. That's the mentality I need. Those would be excuses for me but maybe not next time.

Not having a great week, fell off the past two days and the scale was unkind. I am annoyed that I could do mostly good and still not see progress or very little. I am still battling the lack of sleep from breastfeeding but I gotta do this for my baby and I always feel good about it until I look in the mirror or see myself walking up to a door that shows my reflection. I feel like I look a mess and nothing close to the ideal that I want. This feels like a spiritual battle as I have been in this place multiple times throughout my life as a mother of four. I read this today for encouragement.....

"We should give first priority to the development of an independent spirit as a human being before considering one's role as a man, woman, child, or parent. In other words, for a person to become a man, woman, child, or parent in the true sense of the word, one has to first of all develop his or her autonomous identity as a human being." -daily guidance may 13.

I felt today as I did my meditation/chant/prayer that I needed a sign spiritually leading me to victory over this weight, this obesity, this family karma and I read three pieces of guidance that reassured me that I was going to have to attack this challenge from a mindbodyspirit perspective if I am going to WIN this time. The other guidance I read was.....

"Daily Encouragement: During our dialogue, Dr. Arnold Toynbee at one point told me that his motto was Laboremus, Latin for, "Let's get to work!" Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism focuses on the present and future; it is infused with the spirit, "Let's get started!" We practice for the sake of the present and future. It is important not to become trapped in the past; we have to put it behind us. The Buddhism of true cause is always based on the present moment; it is always "from this moment on."

What I took from that was to let go of the past, my families bad habits and what I used to be, who I used to be when I was connected to them. I am really struggling to not eat in reaction to stuff my family is going through, feeling hopeless about my lresent body image, and just sheer exhaustion from not being able to work out when I want if baby is not sleeping or work schedule being too much. I will not quit, I will not give up this time. I have to commit to right here and right now but I am soooooo tired ladies. I am so tired!

DDWS128 wrote: »

Rosella, I hear and feel your pain. I will say some prayers for you. I am a mom of four and know what you are going through. It is so worth it. Nowadays when I reach for the food because of stress and anxiety, my mantra is "I will not let this [fill in person or situation] have control over me. I am better than that." It helps me to make this declaration to myself. No matter how you appear, you are a beautiful person inside and out! Persistence is a virtue and it sounds like you have that in abundance.

Thank you! Thank you very much, I feel motivated today and I made peace with yesterday. Moving onward and upward!

Those peanut butter cups sound yummy!!!

Remember that time I got ONE drink for a coworker's going away party, went to the gym with the plan of getting dinner afterwards, and was still tipsy enough post workout that I forgot to get dinner? Yeah. Tonight was fun.

Go go magical drinking lightweight powers!

kailadriel wrote: »

Remember that time I got ONE drink for a coworker's going away party, went to the gym with the plan of getting dinner afterwards, and was still tipsy enough post workout that I forgot to get dinner? Yeah. Tonight was fun.

Go go magical drinking lightweight powers!

Kaila, you are hilarious. That sounded like something I would have done with you. I had a sip of wine with they hubby after we went to see Mad Max until my pain in the booty babies called about a spider in the house so we cut part two of date night short. It was a big spider but geeez! LOL

It's been a busy last few days. I did not make it to the gym this week but I added a day of walking. Water has been awesome. I started a liver detox yesterday. It is a three week program that finishes the day before we go to the beach. I wanted to feel my best at the beach. I hope everyone had a good weekend.