I have the same problem. I have never been this heavy before and I self sabotaged my progress by exercising at least an hour a day and later eating up those calories in goodies. Right now, what is working for me is to truly be conscientious of what I am eating including the actual portion size and calories. I've been logging on MFP to see what the calorie count is and if I'm over, I go to the gym. If I later get hungry, I try to eat sugar free jello, salads or low calorie, high protein foods. I actually gave up sweets for a whole week and that was no easy task. The bottom line is you have to replace the unhealthy habit with a healthy habit. If you have to eat, eat the things that are low calorie. If you can actually replace the eating with an activity, go for a walk, read, organize something that you put on the back burner for a long time, go to the gym, clean, visit a friend, call someone, etc. Doing these things will hopefully help you get your control back. I wish you the best of luck in your journey. As I'm writing this, I'm fighting hunger pains but I'm tired of being fat so I'm learning to just deal with it because if I keep giving in to my stomach, I will continue to be overweight.

gizmosmom02 wrote: »

Just found this group and I"m glad I did. Today I weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life and I am feeling so ashamed. Every morning I say "today's a new day and today I won't binge". Guess what? By the end of the day, I am disappointed in myself.

My life is weird. I spend way too much time around my ex (my children live with him because he was the stay at home dad) and I work. It seems all I do is work.

I just feel I have absolutely no control. I know I can't control myself around sugar and some carbs (like bread) set me off.

I have read some of the posts here, about finding other things to do. It seems eating is the only thing that gives me pleasure.

Why is it that we want something (eat healthy, don't binge, lose some weight) but we can't make ourselves do what we have to do to get there?

It is nice to know that I"m not alone.

Never alone! I have been working on changing the way I eat now for 22 months. I use MFP every day, every day. I log all my food - good or bad. Overall I have changed the way I eat - one day at a time, I am now reasonably comfortable with my food plan and (for me) my calorie restrictions etc. I eat mainly unprocessed foods. Keeping my choices simple. I have lost 41kgs (>90 lbs). Regaining a bit of control over my food improved my outlook on life. I would recommend some sort of psychological therapy if you can afford it. Recently I saw a psychologist because of stuff that happened around my son's breakdown and how my partner behaved at the time. This was the best thing I could have done as she helped me resolve many emotional issues around that.

Food wise I can recommend staying away from trigger foods to start with - I avoided highly refined carbs and sugars completely for awhile. I now have the occasional bit but don't eat it regularly.

I'm here too. I've been going up and down the same 5-7 lbs since February.

Initially, it was stress (new baby had a NiCU stay and was followed by blood draws for a few issues for a few months). Now I am at home and all I want to do is eat. I know what I should do. I know meals I've used in the past. I know I sholdny eat unless I've planned it... Now it feels like everything triggers me to eat more (boredom, kids fighting, stress, fatigue...)

I do exercise regularly but I hate how I eat.