Weighed in at 155 today after a binge last night, about 2-2½ weeks left then I will stop trying to lose weight, just not meant to be.

My weight back down some after big binge. It happened the first week of April and weight went up six pounds. Unfortunately it's taken me these few weeks of more big binges and a lot of mini binges to get back on track. I didn't weigh myself again till a few days ago cause knew the numbers would trigger me. I really hate it that the number on the scale is so important it dictates my day you know? Need to be kinder to myself for sure.

157.6

Goal for next Saturday: 155

Long time no post for me. Ran the Boston marathon on Monday in 3:55 after a week off to try and fix my shins. Great race, amazing crowds, super hot. Looking at pictures from the race was kind of a bummer, considering I'm 30 lbs heavier than I was when I qualified. It sucks that thinking about weight can suck so much out of a great experience. Felt not great afterwards (mentally and physically), and today was the first day I had worked out since Monday. My weight was all over the place even without working out. I hit an all time high of 173 on April 14 (water weight probably but still). Definitely less binging with less exercise but I still had a few super bad days. I want to really focus on losing weight now, which is not ideal to do with high volume running, so I feel like there will be a lot of cross training in my future.

Danielle I'm glad you updated us! Definitely take some time off from exercise and try to recover and relax. For now, are you just running for fun? Or are you training for something else?

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So I weighed in today. I am at 198.9 finally out of the 200's. Now to just keep going and losing weight.

Congrats on onederland! So awesome!

6:15 AM: 145 (-1.9 based on Happy Scale's expected weight)

Goal for next week: 144.7

Setting a small goal for next week because Koffie's birthday is on Friday and I'll likely have a massive binge. Also having a doughnut day at internship on Tuesday. I'm hoping I can lose regardless but I need to try hard not to overcompensate on other days. There's a good chance I gain this week, but will try to achieve this small goal.

160.9 Two bad binge days but I'm done with school now so hopefully that will alleviate some stress. It's absolutely terrifying how much my weight fluctuates. I was over 170 and under 160 within three days.

Up 2.3 "expected weight" although actual weight is a lot higher. This week there's no way I can set a goal. I'm back in a bingeing cycle and my family is coming to visit. My goal will be to not engage in anticipatory bingeing or post meal binges. I will try to maintain my weight and be more active. I'm going to see if I can lose but it's unlikely. This week I had a few big binge days and a couple smaller ones, and a couple restricting days. I'm gonna shoot to consistently eat more calories this week and see if it helps reduce bingeing. I don't have much to lose, considering how swollen I am. Graduation is on Monday so my main goal is to not binge until then for now.

I just hit 219. First time under 220 in many, many years.