Hi ... I was all set to click the 'join' button, because as of this mornings weigh-in I am exactly 100 pounds over the weight I was after I gave birth to my child ... 51.6 years ago. Then I read the heartfelt story by OP and realized that I'm not really in the category of folks who are being looked for ... because I seriously doubt (and therefore I won't) get back to that weight again. I'm actually trying to get back to about 160-175 ... and that is 65-80 pounds from where I am today.

Still, I'd like to share today, and this will be the place.

I am dissappointed in myself this week, and that feeling has been growing stronger every day with remorse being thrown in today. That's because a pattern that I have been struggling with for the past couple of years has repeated itself ... one again.

Once again I was unable to halt a week's worth of high carbohydrate intake to put me back 2 weeks in weight. .. I was the same weight this morning (on 2/20), that I had been on 1/30 while in a losing weight run. This is the first week I am showing a gain, and that's what scares me. In my previous records that kind of thing often leads to more gains instead of a reversal back to weight loss. The last such experience I had was last quarter (October through December) ... I started that quarter weighing exactly what I do today, after the previous quarter showing an almost 5% body fat/weight loss. I was so pumped and ready to finish the calendar year with at least another 12 pound loss. Instead, the third week in I had a weight gain similar to this mornings. That continued with another 4 weeks of weight gains, then some up and down, leaving me to finish out that quarter having lost all the momentum I had achieved in the prior quarter ... I was back to where I had started 6 months before! And that is how I started this year!!!

What is it about us overweight people that causes us to slip back into exactly the behaviors we know very well will cause us to gain weight? Oh, I've read the scientific studies on weight loss ... all about the different possible conclusions taking the mind and body into account as the reason behind it. But ... it wasn't our brain and metabolism that misfired back in the beginning ... when we were packing on the pounds to start with. It was our own disregard for healthful eating behavior and committment to an active life style. Now we reap what we have sown. Many of us are turning to cutting out parts of our bodies in an attempt to make the weight loss journey more possible.

I refuse to do that. I don't care what the recent medical evidence is about removing part of your body ... mainly most of your stomach .... will suddenly cause Diabeties Type 2 to dissappear, that you will lose upwards of a hundred pounds and keep it off without any trouble .... because even more recent medical studies have shown that this is not true, Certain kinds of anatomy alteration do not lead to reversal of diabeties. Even the one that is supposed to doesn't keep you diabeties 2 free unless you continue to adhere to a low carb/low calorie intake. People who lose weight often don't lose anywhere near the amount they had imagined they would. People often regain ... even to the point of regaining more than they ever lost in the first place. And ... they are left with a life long alteration to their anatomy and ability to uptake nutrients that will plague them whether they become thin or get fat again.

So .. instead of going 'that route' I struggle with my eating and activity behavior. I also seek to join groups that have people of a like mind struggling with their own journey.

I may never get there, but maybe I will.

Howdy Folks,

So the story is, after lots of eating and drinking this last Christmas I decided it was time to stop drinking. Soon after, I went to the Dr and my weight had actually gone down a few pounds from the last visit. This was the boost I needed to get motivated to get on the way to a healthier me.

SW-367 (1/9)
CW-340.5 (2/19)
GW(current)-225