I'm so addicted to sugar, embarassingly so. I can lose control around it before I even realize. In the past my acheivments include eating an entire box of 100 calorie snacks, having two large Mc Frappe's for breakfast, not being able to wait to get home from the grocery store to eat my sweet treats and other bad behaviors.

Dissordered eating included laxative abuse, taking Ritalin to lose weight, using every over the counter substance I could to lose weight, throwing up after binging, um' yeah....

And uh' this is the first time I've ever told anyone. Not even on MFP -- I guess, you know, I kinda didn't want anyone to know. When I get into weight loss groups it tends to trigger binging for me and last night I watched a show on TLC where food was being with held from obese people and that was it - I was eating.

I hoard food, I'm getting a lot better and over the past four weeks I have cleaned out my house.

A couple of things happened that put this whammy on me. 1.) Drinking nothing but soda pop until I was 24 years old - never had a single glass of water. 2.) Food scarcity 3.) depression and a series of medication fiascos.

I have my college degrees, I used to have a career before my health went away, and I'm a high performer and I tend to do very well at what I set out to do.

There was so much abuse in my life as a kid and when I grew up when bad things would happen they didn't matter if it happened to me. I was not worth much. I thought that people who watched their weight were doing so because they were really pretty or it was 'worth it' and what did it matter for me? I was so stupid looking that extra weight didn't matter. No one was going to notice. No one cared.

Sometimes I just wish someone would hit 'like' on the photos of cats I post on Facebook.

Life is isolating.

I have to get my sh1t together. I've worked on this for a year. I've made progress. I've lost weight, but I never confronted my sugar monkey until two weeks ago.

Well -- I gotta run -- sorry to be so personal

((Hugs)) I hope we get enough members to get this going!

I just want to throw my hat in the ring on all of this. I have serious addict habits when it comes to sugar. I want to change this. It drives me crazy and I know it's at the root of a lot my medical and health issues.

Sugar is so pervasive in our supermarkets!! I applaud each of you for posting your struggles.

I mysteriously gained 40 lbs this year. None of my nice clothes fit. I had to buy a few things so that I wasn't wearing clothes that made me feel so uncomfortable. When I lost 30 lbs on WW I ate so much crap food: fake cheese, fat-free this and that; I swore I'd never eat so poorly again.

I joined Eat More 2 Weigh Less to help me jump off the starvation-binge roller coaster. It's taken a long time, but I'm finally really close. Today I focus on increasing protein, getting in my 100 oz of water per day and sticking to my calories. I removed sugar after realizing/learning that I have a gut absorption problem. I joined a local gym and after my hip heals, I'll be lifting weights again.

I'm 53 years old and I want to get to and remain at a healthy weight, be muscular and active. I posted my 10 day sugar challenge on another thread in this group.

Go read the book by Susan pierce Thompson PhD called bright line eating. The best book on sugar addiction I have read. It's complicated but it is an addiction as much as cocaine. She discusses how to overcome it. It works and is a forever thing him do not miss it once you give it up for a few months and when you do eat it you get sick so it's easier to keep away from it.