Well, here I am again, 20 pounds heavier. I got lazy and quit working out and eating right. But, writing this down and sharing with you all is part of my admissions. I feel very foolish for my detour. So, today, I literally beat myself up. And I think I will everyday from now on. I stood up in front the mirror and "shadow boxed", hitting myself, aiming at the irresponsible girl in the mirror. Fists hit air, bit look like I hit "me." I asked myself why and made me answer. I know it sounds crazy but it worked. I'll be my own coach. And I'll hold myself accountable. Reporting to you all. So, here I go again. My beginning weigjt is 220 and my goal weight is 175. My first goal is 22 ponfs of 200 pounds. I hope to see y'all on my journey as well. I'm sorry I deserted you all.