Pass day - I seem to be alternating between relatively okay days and days where I switch from incredibly sad to really pissed off. My 4-1/2 year old grandson, who is thousands of miles away, keeps FaceTiming me crying, telling me he misses me, and begging me to come see him. I have been trying to keep myself so busy that I don’t have time to think about much. Yesterday was a bad day despite doing a great deal of physical labor. I think I need to try some meditation because a big mug of hot cocoa with a pound of marshmallow fluff did not make me feel better.