So, I was reading "Breaking Free from Emotional Eating" by Geneen Roth, on I think MJ's recommendation, and she talks a little bit about binging and food that calls to you. I was thinking about it today, and she has a pretty darn good point. It seems like we are told to fill ourselves up with healthy foods like veggies and protein etc... in order to prevent us from binging on junk food. But quite honestly, what ends up happening for me is that I eat the healthy stuff first, and then I just eat the stuff I want anyway later when my willpower fails - esp if it is in the fridge and I start binging at all.

So, do you guys agree that if you want something in the fridge and it's in your calorie range, it would be better to just eat that and not pretend you won't. Maybe it's not a healthy thing to totally eat junk food (ice cream, candy etc,..) all the time, but in my mind, it's better than overdoing the calories because we choose healthy stuff we really did NOT want, and then "binged" on the unhealthy stuff.

I am really having trouble with allowing myself to eat junk or even eat more calories. I feel like I am cheating even if I have the calories available. sheesh. I don't work out in order to get more calories to eat, but rather to build muscle and cardio, but I do need fuel.

So, last night, I really REALLY wanted to go eat a pint of ice-cream and I had about 800 calories available. I didn't end up buying it, but I think I should be able to. I do know I probably will not feel as good the next day with such a sugar imbalance but maybe the way to quit the cycle is to admit what you like and eat that first regardless of the "judgement" eyes.