That is a bit obsessive... Perhaps you need to give MPF a bit of a break...???

Ladies: I was the same way. Those little words were validating in some weird way. Something I have learned in therapy is that the rules don't just apply to everyone else, they apply to me too. Everyone needs to eat more to feed their metabolism...so do I. Everyone else needs xxxx calories to survive...so do I. These rules apply to all of you! We all need to eat enough to maintain basic life functions. If you plan ahead, it doesn't feel like binging when you hit 1200 and beyond. Give it a try for a few days...you'll see the difference.

omg i am exactly the same loll... i try to eat a lot more than i was eating before but i am still very very careful about what i have.. my doctors panicking about that but at least i am not restricting completely anymore : )... just need to push past the 1000 mark which is my limit so believe me you are doing better than me!! we will all get to that point someday when we dont panic and stress about 1 or 2 extra calories

I;m with you & probably even worse than that - the future weight thing~I'm obsessed with it being in the double digits - now I don't want to weight that, I did a few years ago & know I need to stay above 100, just seeing it makes me feel like I have some wiggle room or something. I have increased my calories over the past few weeks - up to around 1100 (I'm 5'2", I'm convinced I would need less to maintain than someone 5'10") & I've lost a pound or two so that is certianly encouraging & will keep me on a healthier track.

For me, it was the hardest thing about going over 1200 so I totally get you. It was like it affirmed my dedicated hardcore awesomeness! After I broke it though, increasing got a little easier (am usually on 1500-1600 these days, still not managing to eat the exercise calories though). It's nice not having the red words now, I've wanted to eat "normally" for so long, so I'm kind of a little proud of not having the red any more