We all have to start some where. Just think of it bonus eye candy while you work out. He gets paid to be there and to help you, so it doesn't matter what he thinks as long as he's doing his job.

I know it can be intimidating going into a gym when overweight. I find it intimidating just going to the park to do laps. I have found that most people have been supportive when starting a new exercise routine no matter what size they are. They are their to get healthier and so are you. It doesn't matter what other people think., only what you think you need to do to improve your health.

Have at great time at the gym! Can't wait to hear about it later:

I am so glad to see that I'm not the only one who has issues with their mommy. Mine would ride me about my weight every once in awhile (especially considering that she had no right to say anything seeing as how she was overweight too), but she was all hard core on wearing make up and fixing my hair. She'd say things like "You're such a pretty girl, but you'd look even better if you wore makeup and fixed your hair." It's always made me feel like screaming at her and asking her when I would finally be good enough for her. My mom and I had always had an extremely unhealthy relationship, we never got a long. I finally made the choice to just give up and stop talking to her. All that I ever got was negative feedback, never any moral support or encouragement. I can totally understand how it would crush you, because it was the same for me.

As far as the trainer went, yes he was an Adonis. He smelled really nice too. I tried not to look too googley eyed seeing as how my fiancee was standing next to me. He had a really nice tush too. Anyway, now that I'm done drooling, he showed us how to use some of the machines and the different exercises that we could do on them. (I will admit that some of these look like I'd go to bed that evening and wake up in complete and total agony.) Anyways, gotta run. I gotta get work done even though I so don't want to. LOL! :-D

i can completely understand!!!!!!!!!!!! I am really greatful to have access to a fitness center right across the street here at work. I go over there on my lunch break and use the treadmill. How old is your son? Maybe to get moving around you could go with him to the park or to a zoo. You just have to stay motivated and to be successful, in my opinion, is that you have to want this for yourself and not to be doing it for anyone else. I wish you all the best on your journey! :-D