Hi thirties - I'm about to be a big downer, so I apologize in advance. Just need to vent. Feel free to skip to the end for pleasantries.

I'm in one heck of funk this morning. Every thread I read is ticking me off and apparently my efforts at sticking closely to a balanced diet are an annoyance or inconvenience to others . . .

I've been feeling like a "fatty" this week, eventhough I lost again. :ohwell: Tired, grouchy, and it seems like I'm just spinning my wheels - no traction, no progress . . . just spinning. I felt pretty good about how I looked this morning before I left the house, but then when I got to work I saw my reflection in the glass doors next to that of the tall, scrawny girl I work with, I felt like a big, gross slob. :frown: I immediately wished I'd worn something different - hadn't wasted the effort of trying to look nice. Blaaaah . . . did I mention my hair also seems to be just randomly falling out? Not in clumps or anything, but I'm certainly shedding a lot more than normal.

My job interview last Friday went well, I think. Well enough that they've decided to "test me". I received two projects to complete so they can see how my mind works . . . lots of research into things I haven't had much experience with, so it's pretty challenging for me. I'm stressing over the "double-life" of working one job while trying to find another. My current employer doesn't know I'm looking, mostly because I am almost certain they would fire me if they did and there is no way my family can survive on a single income at this particular point in time. And to top it off, my current job is requiring a lot of extra complicated work at the moment. I'm ready to scream, cry, jump out the window, run away . . . :sad:

Ugh - okay, enough. I mostly just needed to get all of this off my chest as I don't really have many outlets.

On a happier note, I did witness something that I found very amusing at the gym last night - two buff dudes sharing recipes. lol :laugh: I really couldn't help but giggle. It just seemed so out of place.

Happy Friday and I hope you all have a great weekend - maybe if I make some time to lay by the pool the next couple of days, I will have a much improved attitude.

Hi everyone,
I'm just done today... my husband had surgery yesterday and then was admitted into the hospital to be observed overnight. So yesterday was spent being at the hospital, taking care of my kids, and then not being able to sleep because it's hard to sleep without him here.

Today - well today was him getting discharged and the 6 of us (5 of us and our puppy) trying to settle into a routine with him not being able to do anything - ANYTHING - at all for himself. Okay, that's harsh of me to say - he can get to the bathroom by himself, but he can't stand up, sit down, lay back, walk, etc. by himself. He's so worried about anything or anyone bumping his stomach (gall bladder surgery) that he is very snippy. Taking care of the kids, moving the recliner by myself downstairs, I don't know how I'm going to get through these recovery days. He was also told no stairs for a week - so he will be sleeping downstairs and having to use our 1/2 bath (no shower) to somehow get himself washed up... but he's acting like a complete little boy and seems excited about the possibility of not getting clean...

I'm just so done and tired...

thanks for letting me vent...

Thank you. Today he is much better - able to get moving by himself which is helping a lot. He isn't as snippy either.