Today is day 14 of my abstinence and wanted to end my day by posting. This marks the end of my eating for the day. I just pray I can get through the night without taking another bite. I still have habits that are a big no no for most OAers across the nation, but I guess we are all on our own track in this journey and in life. For example, I weigh myself daily, actually twice daily so I constantly know when my weight moves even a fraction. I still pay too much attention to how much i weigh and how much I lost. BTW, I lost 10 pounds in two weeks. I know some will say that is too much, but when you have this much to lose it really isn't. I keep counting in my head where my weight will be in one week, one month, two months etc…if i lose 2 pounds weekly. It is obsessive and compulsive and I don't care. I am so sick of being fat. It is scary that I am morbidly obese per my bmi. One of my first goals is just being obese and than overweight and than the high side of a normal weight. I definitely belong here in OA. I definitely need to post to other OA'ers to stay accountable. I make it all day without thinking about food, but find it hard after i get home from work. My husband makes it even harder sometimes when he says things like I'm hungry or will go into the kitchen at night making good smelling foods. I came on here now because that is what he is doing. So, I'm going to go watch one of my favorite shows and than go to sleep. I can make it one hour without eating and go to sleep. Thanks for listening if you did. And, if no one listened thats okay too. My HP hears all.