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I just started! It's really overwhelming! It's not through a hospital, it's a private place that is working with my insurance, recommended by my doctor. I think it's going to be really helpful, but it's a slow start, and I feel anxious that it hasn't started in full yet...I am trying to keep myself busy and not worry too…

Ok, thanks everyone. This quells a little worry. How much, percentage wise, is too much? I think it's high because I eat pb. I need to figure out how to eat more protein, I think that's generally low. I tried to eat more today.

I'm trying to lose weight. I'm not yet eating enough, calorie wise. (Trying). My macros are at 40, 30, I got worried because I saw the reports for some days, and close to 50% some days were from fats! Is this not a terrible thing?

I just wanted to say "I hear you!" I struggle with these things too. In fact, in my group meal at the treatment center I just started going to, I was unable to push the anxiety aside and eat anything at all! And if I eat something I fear, I will feel panicked for hours, and just want to get it out. :( I think I'm going to…

Sorry, I just didn't understand that comment. But I also need to lose weight to be healthy. I'm trying to understand how to do that without extreme restriction...that's why I'm here...

Never mind what?

Thanks to you both! I went for an intake appointment for an IOP today. I still don't know many of the details, but I am hopeful it will be helpful. I hope I'm ready to make the best of it... Dealing with anxiety...I have gotten a bit better, but still really struggle. I will take your tips seriously!

Well...I'm not in an IOP yet, and this seems to have been helping a bit. I don't have a treatment team...yet. I will have one if I do this IOP, but I'm quite anxious about it. I'm quite anxious about new things/changes in general, which is why I was hoping someone with experience would be able to tell me a little of what…

Yeah, me too! I would love for this to be active...

I do want to get healthy. I guess it's a matter of constantly motivating myself by this token, even when it feels incredibly hard, but I can't describe how much the fear kicks in and makes me feel paralyzed. Thanks for the well wishes! Encouraging!

Because it's scary to force yourself to eat when you don't feel like you need to, especially when you're really afraid of gaining weight. :(

This is really overwhelming! I am feeling like I can never be able to do this!

Liftng4Liz, I mean when you no longer feel hunger... Thanks for your replies, everyone. It seems eating on a timed schedule would be a good idea...

So meal plan, and eventually it should reset. It's just tough to do it when there's no hunger. I don't have a medical team yet! I'm working on that.

I could try that. I mean, I do try, but I don't always do very well. Does anyone know why this happens? Or if it means anything sinister?

Sorry, the nope was for "no, I don't feel rumblings in my tummy." I don't mean to sound trite. But no, I don't think I'm eating too often, either.

Nope

Is what a thing? Losing hunger signals? I think so? I don't feel hunger in my stomach, I just feel it in my head, when my blood sugar is really low or something...when I feel like I can't concentrate or am close to passing out.

Thanks, nony_mouse! That's really helpful! :)

Nony_mouse, do you think journaling will help with restricting? I know stress and feeling of not being good enough or helpless about certain things in my life makes restricting more appealing, but I don't always realize when it's happening or feel able to stop it...

Thanks everyone for your responses. It's good to know there are others out there, and maybe we can support each other? Perhaps we should get the group active again! And use it as a place to encourage and support each other, ask questions or air concerns, and provide feedback for each other? Does that sound like a good…

Thanks. It seems slow is the way to go...I think if I can learn this, it will be good for both my body AND my soul...

Thanks for the clarification, JaneiR36! Yes, I'm trying to eat a higher goal of 1590!

I know, I know! I'm trying to change that! I'm trying to figure out how I can eat properly. I have a referral, but waiting on the paperwork. In the meantime, I'm trying to push myself to eat what I should. It's scary for me, but I really am trying. That's why I've asked for advice figuring out how many calories to eat, and…

I weighed the hummus out in grams. I had 112 grams, or 4 ounces, or 8 tbsp, according to this entry. (It listed grams and tablespoons in comparison). I made my own hummus, added very little oil, and chose a hummus with a high amount of calories per 28 grams, or ounce, to be on the safe side. I estimated the banana, and put…

Any more friends?

Yes, I am still struggling. I really thought this would help...channel some determination into getting better. I have a lot of fear foods and fear of eating too much, but I thought to set a goal and try to achieve it would help. I'm talking about it in counseling, and start at a treatment center soon, but wanted to try to…

What is disordered? I don't understand! I'm trying to get better! I am going to a counselor. They aren't an ed specialist, but I'm doing what I can...

Yup, at some point I did. Then I developed disordered eating and lost a bunch of weight, and some of the other things you mentioned. Then I tried to "recover" and gained a lot back. I've started losing again, the bad way, and want to stop. But at the moment, I've been restricting to anywhere from 400 to 1000 calories. I…

Thanks for your feedback! I reset my goal to do one pound per week. My new goal is 1,590. I would like to change macros to 40/30/30, but not sure how to do that? I checked under settings, couldn't find it. (I'm on my phone, which makes it a bit difficult.) Honestly, eating more is going to be really hard for me. I've eaten…