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Recent life lessons: a motivational assessment taught me the two basic drives for behavior: 1.obtain pleasure/satisfaction 2. avoid pain/suffering. I learned that my motivation is obtaining pleasure. Probably why my mom's negative consequences did nothing to deter my defiant pursuits for happiness! Also why my change in…

Hard to believe that November was my last check in. But then again, yes I can. Since my last check-in I have put more effort into changing my food life style. It started in January with a 21 day Daniel Fast. Only whole grains, fruits, vegetables, dairy, 100% fruit juice, nuts/seeds, beans/legumes and lots of water. I felt…

Today I was faced with a decision to eat a donut or not eat a donut. And instead of asking myself "why can't I?", I asked "why do I want to?". Interesting thing happened; I didnt have a good reason. This surprised me because I'm only used to not having a motivating enough answer for "why can't I". I'm used to talking…

Challenge: the struggle of why? "Why can't I have it?" Intellectually I know its healthier not to have everything I want. But I still desire those things. Overcoming challenge: instead of focusing on why I can't have it, I will explore why do I want it. In a non judgemental way, examine what desire I am trying to fulfill…

Wednesday Wishes... At this moment in my life I wish I didn't have to work so hard at this. I wish that it came easily. However, I think back to Paul's writing in II Corinthians Chapter12. He said that God afflicted him with a thorn in his side to keep him humble. And I also consider the man at the well of Bethesda who was…

From beginning to now!

Dear Lord, I thank you for your grace. For your mercy and goodness that follows me all the days of my life. I am so thank that throughout this journey you never left me nor did you forsake. You stayed with me, shielding me from hurt harm and danger. Through the sacrifice made by your son Jesus Christ, I was found worthy to…

Man oh man. I thought I caught my second wind a few months but these past weeks have been phenomenal. 1) Going to bed at 10 instead of 8 has helped improve my sleep quality a bunch. I sleep all through the night with minimal disruptions. I notice that I have more energy throughout the day. Also, I use that extra hour or so…

One week of diet change (although I journaled about it on the 13th I had already started on the 10th). I found it helpful in a number of ways. 1) having the cut off time helped me to eat less calories because I ate less food. 2) the cut off time also helped me to drink more water because that's all I allowed myself after…

Heard these quotes recently: 1) "Change is a compromise. You have to give up something to get something". 2) "Nothing taste as good as it feels to be thin". Not my favorite. But I get it. Those caught my attention because they spoke to me about tightening up on discipline. About a month or so ago I celebrated what…

Praise Report: my average daily calorie intake dropped by 600 calories for the past two weeks. WON'T HE DO IT!

I am excited that I continued to focus on the quality of my food. I've found that fueling up on high fiber really does cut down on snacking because I feel fuller longer. And the fiber helps things moving in my digestive system. I've also noticed a change in my mindset about somethings. Once upon a time I was excited about…

OMG. I lost 3 pounds! Challenge (because it wouldn't be me if I wasn't faced with a challenge!): I don't believe I lost three pounds. I think its a difference because I was on a different scale and I was wearing heavier clothes. Overcoming challenge: Recognize my efforts. 1) I log consistently. 2) I'm focused on the…

Challenge: this week I accepted my reality that I do not want junk food to end. When I'm eating something sugary/fatty/carby and delicious I tend to eat it all up, gobble it all down and stuff myself. I eat and eat and eat even if I'm not hungry or if I'm already stuffed full. I once told myself that once I started eating…

I've discovered BEANS. Wow! What a delicious way to get in some fiber. God bless the bean.

Today was a great day. I was mindful of my choices and took pride in fueling my body with mostly healthy foods. I had a protein packed breakfast that held me over for 4 solid hours. I got in some steps doing my bi-weekly grocery shopping. My fridge is full of more fresh produce than ever before. And I was under my spending…

Thank God for this journal. This morning's post motivated me because I was able to recognize my progress. No 5000 calories in one day is not progress!! :-D But eating a salad before the entree is. And not gobbling down an entire entree at one time is progress. So is eating a high fiber breakfast in the morning and avoiding…

I am feeling bumbed out. Challenge: I didn't even try yesterday. I knew it was going to be that kind of day. I felt a "forget it" attitude kick in around 9am. So then i told myself... "Lets see how many calories I eat when I don't try". I didn't use my gum to combat my snack attacks. I ate the office goodies that I avoided…

I switched my plan and ate my wheat bread pb&j sandwich for breakfast and my veggies for lunch. Seems to have worked better for me. God bless and that it is all.

Eerrrggghh!!! :-( Challenge: This thing called life. Ok so not all of it :-) But changing a lifestyle is a big big deal. I'm challenging all of my long long long life time habits and that is a struggle. I literally have shortness of breath, tightness in my chest, anxiety, anger and sadness all at the same time when faced…

Challenge: Why can't I have a donut? Why can't I just eat what I want when I want? What is the big freakin deal! Overcoming Challenge; I don't have a strategy for that. Right now I allow myself to indulge in my urges. I rationalize my behavior with the thought that I am doing myself a favor. I give myself permission to…

Testimony: Through mindfulness eating I have come to accept that raw vegetables do not feel good to me. That would have previously put a halt to my efforts of eating vegetables for breakfast. But through further observation of myself, I discovered that warm foods feel good to me. So this morning I warmed up my vegetable…

When I first started this journey I must say that I didn't have a destination. It was a "might as well" thing. Yes I wanted some things to change but I didn't have a real long term goal. I knew losing weight was not a good goal for me because I am a yo yo dieter. So I said I would do this just because I wanted to. But as…

These past couple of days have been pretty hectic emotionally. I've felt anxious and an overwhelming sense of dread at work. I know its because I'm responsible for making multitude of decisions each day that impact lives. Not just the lives of the clients but as a manager that includes the the lives of the staff as well.…

Sunday Sharing - I am thankful for my relationship with God. Its not a religion but a genuine relationship. I am free to be honest about my hurts habits and hang ups. I can speak freely to my father with no condemnation. I am thankful for the sacrifice of Jesus Christ dying on the cross and rising on the third day with all…

These past few weeks have been wins and losses. For whatever reason I was moody as heck last week. Melancholy was my vocabulary word for a couple of days. I believe I used it in my sentences correctly! Win: Diet adjustments. Whelp... Lets start with the win of having a mature definition of diet. My consistent logging has…

Today was a better day. I didn't have as many sugar cravings/snack attacks. I only craved my morning cup of coffee. Not because of the caffeine but because its something warm and sweet. But after that I was okay. Challenge: I dont feel like facing a challenge today. Overcoming obstacle: take it one day at a time. Don't…

This journey is tough. Every day here lately has been a struggle. So today I give myself compassion. Today I give myself a break. Today I recognize that I am human, imperfect, born to make mistakes. And just when I thought this was only about losing weight, I am realizing that its more than that. I am also working on my…

This journey is tough. I have gained 9 pounds in the past month. I am in such a slump that I dont even feel like I'm trying. I even considered not logging my food. I figured "what's the point". Challenge: as a mental health counselor I find myself feeling like a hypocrite because of my ongoing struggle with poor eating…

Just when I think I am doing well with passing the sugary snacks when I grocery shop, some evil genius events Golden Oreo O's cereal! What the What!?!?! God bless and walk on by.