teemix1 Member

thanks everyone, you all make some great points, I have to remind myself I am doing this for me.

No csplatt you were no out of line or anything, I didnt take it that way, I just wanted to explain myself a little better. sorry if you thought I was coming down on you. I appreciate what you said as it helps me look at things differently and being super sensitive to things and taking too much to heart I need to learn to…

Thank you all for your suggestions, help and kind words. I am talking it out with my Drs and feeling better knowing I could not have changed things and it was not my fault that my parents favored my siblings. Dont get me wrong I really didnt grow up abused, I did a lot of things with my parents, camping, fishing, water…

csplatt, no I never pressed them about loving me less ever, I never brought it up. They brought it up to me when I was telling my dad some personal things about myself. I have never let him know I felt unloved (my adopted mom died when I was 20 of cancer and I never said anything to her either) so what my stepmom and dad…

I've been overweight since I hit puberty but 5 years I got to my highest at 270, then I lost 112 pounds to get to 158 and fell back into all my old habits.....dont know why for 2.5 years (the longest I ever went) I did everything right but in the last 2.5 years I gain back to 242. I need major help in staying motivated, I…

I used to ride but since I have gained back so much weight of the 112 I lost 5 years ago I dont ride anymore. I have a question to you all that do ride what do you think the weight limit should be for someone wanting to ride. I have friends that keep asking me to ride with them but I feel way too insecure to ride and I…

Thanks everyone for your comments and knowing others had the same issue of having a normal TSH but still having hypothyroidism. I probably had this for many many years and been suffering needlessly from it just because no one did the right test or took me seriously when I said I really didnt eat that much but still gained…

I see my GP every 6 months because he says I am pre diabetic (and have been for 35-40 years) and he does blood work every 6 months, and I have seen other Drs too about not being able to lose weight so they have done thyroid function test. But the problem is that my Dr and all the other Drs I have see have only done the TSH…

I am very very accurate with what I eat, I weight everything that goes in my mouth if its not already measured out. I have a postal scale that weights to the gram so I weigh to the gram. I will take out one corn flake (for example) to get to the amount I need so I know I am not overeating. I tried the 1200-1300 calories…

Thanks everyone for the response, here are a few more points that you have asked about that may help you understand my frustration and depression. First yes I am clinically depressed, been on and off meds for over 30 years, been depressed since I was a preteen and I am now 59 years old. I have been fighting weight since I…