bmuelling07

I began purging at the age of 15.. I used it as a means for weight loss until age 18 when I started college. I then became addicted to the release it gave me. When i was flushing food down the toilet it felt like I was also flushing away all of my negative thoughts and feelings and stresses. When you purge; it gives you a…

Thank you! I'll check that out right away. Hopefully I can find the help I need to get on track. Thanks again! :o)

It is a very good idea if you're hungry to wait until you can prepare yourself a proper meal.. but for me; I find that if I'm starving that I can't make it through the preparation without snacking on something. I don't know why I seem to not be able to control my hand to mouth movements lol.. it's very irritating however..…

I know that I really need to stay away from the white sugar and flour.. that has got to be my biggest vice. I hate that everything has bleached/un-bleached enriched flours in it (AKA bad for you).. and they're more often than not loaded with sugar or high fructose corn syrup... I feel like the grocery store is the enemy…

I know what you mean about wanting to eat the crappy food so much that you actually go out of your way to sneak it. When I first moved in with Wesley I remember there were a few times when after he left for work I would totally pig out on food that was horrible for me... simply because I didn't want Wesley to see what a…

Thank you very much for the wonderful advice :o) I have only gone to therapy once, but we are doing cognitive restructuring. I used up all of my restructuring worksheets already but will get more. I have been mostly using them for my anxiety because I have distorted thinking when it comes to how I feel someone reacted to…

This helped a lot.. thank you for the tips. The snack alternatives that you listed are actually some of my favorites that I haven't had in a long time! And also, the idea of getting a box beforehand is SUCH a good idea! I notice that in between the time that I declare that I am full and the time I get my box I have…

I think that the reason I tend to be so gluttonous is because of my childhood... I felt that I always had to eat up the good food or else my dad or brother would eat it all before I was satisfied. I remember that leftovers in our house didn't last more than 3 hours before one of us got into it. And I always would binge of…

Mellencamper: Motivation via quotes takes me back to my dark days with anorexia... otherwise I would soooo do that because it did work.. lol... but I need to avoid anything triggering. Thank you though :) Gibson: Know exactly what you mean.. fortunately I have not been gaining weight back when I fall off. But, when I get…

Great idea! The only downfall of that is that I do not have a phone where I could have the fitnesspal app. but I don't see why I couldn't just write down what I plan to eat to log later.. although it would be nice to know the nutritional info beforehand.. but nonetheless that is a good idea to see what I'm eating all…

I would love to be able to just go grab a healthy snack and be done with it... but unfortunately I have a few problems.. 1. my boyfriend eats a lot of junkfood.. and I don't forsee him quitting his nightly crap-food bingeing. 2. A friggin' ho ho is a helluva lot more appealing to me than apple slices (Which sucks.. I like…

If I was looking for any reassurance it was that I wasn't "Morbidly Obese". I am definitely aware that I am overweight...that is why I joined the site. I understand that you are being encouragingly blunt so don't take my reply the wrong way.. I'm just stating that I realize I for sure need to lose weight. That is obviously…

I'm not saying that I am upset at it because i need to lose a bunch of weight.. I've done it before.. and I can do it again.It's just that I think that our society is so "Black & white" There is NO gray area when it comes to the bmi stats. That is the only thing I am upset about. If 140lbs is going to make me "Normal"..…

Yeh.. I know that I am definitely not obese but it's still sort of a kick to the stomach to see that statistically i am huge.

yeh.. I heard that actually they keep lowering the weight for the "normal" range. Apparently my normal weight range is between 107lbs and 140lbs. Idk how long it will take for me to get down to 140. The last time I was 140lbs I was 15 and anorexic. I looked SICK at 140lbs.

I unfortunately do not have a smartphone. I'm a simple girl with a simple phone lol.. But I could more than likely remember to make a "Note" in my phone listing what I have eaten when I haven't been around a computer.

Are you an emotional eater? If so, there could be something that sets you off and makes you binge. It could be stress, loneliness, hopelessness, doubting yourself.. all sorts of things. It's one of my big problems. If you binge, look back on what you were feeling/thinking when you decided to reach for the food. I am…

Thank for your replies and support everyone! It feels wonderful that there are so many supporters on this message board! I look forward to getting to know you guys! -Britney

I am also seeing a therapist because I have General Anxiety Disorder, and I also have Trichotillomania (A form of OCD).. which in a nutshell means that I sometimes get the compulsive urge to pull my hair out.. Sometimes i don't even realize that I am doing it and then I look up at the clock and I've been pulling for 3…

I tried to get my dr. to prescribe it to me but he told me it was unsafe and he didn't prescribe it and didn't know anyone who did. He also mentioned that he would have to check my heart and I have a family history of hypertension PLUS my blood pressure that day had been high because I had taken a stacker 3 that day. He…