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@ddmom0811 I gave dd the soft cream as a sample and she just loves it. I figured the skin of a 25 year old wouldn't need lotion but she said her skin is so amazing and thinks her pores are smaller (but i think I heard that that's never the case because it's something you can't change). The soft cream worked fine for me but…

Ya We found out that today when Eric phoned the hotel. I think December would be best (better) anyway, give everyone time to grieve ( I don't even wanna leave the house right now), decide if we want to leaving Alex's remains there, plus make the most of financial arrangements. I have surgery scheduled in 2 weeks, which is…

To balance my walk, I ate more ben and jerrys, took a shower and seem to have outgrown a pair of sweat pants. *sigh*. I feel like I need another walk. The nice park is closed off. There is a natural cold spring there and people swim. But you can get to it if you walk about 2 miles in. I just laughed at the families hiking…

Dh took me for a walk (I'm a puppy dog, I guess). We decided to try to honor Alex's memory with a trip to Hawai'i. DD is down. I'm glad to offer her something to look forward too. DH is already looking at prices, LOL! I don't know if I can leave Bear for that long though.

Food too much of it. The apparent weight I lost must have been water, no hesitation in it returning and then some back to pre-grief. So today i am going to try to make more reasonable decisions. I'm still 6 pounds over the do something weight and more than 10 from where I wanna be. Grief yesterday sucked. Worst day yet. I…

Thanks again all. I feel a bit guilty for not being miserable today. With the crazy drama, I am still in a state of relief that the remains weren't stolen. And I hear Alex with a smirk, " girls just can't get enough of me". His memory still offers me hugs and even a dance yesterday, ya know just cherishing his heartfelt…

crazy haha!

me me me me! I got my way. (so far today) Rough. Service was fine. I had to take a moment and remind myself that it wasn't exactly what I wanna hear, but it probably was on point for others. I sort of checked out during the, ya know churchie stuff, little to rigid in my mind. I found myself staring at a corner that made an…

A wonderful opportunity for a Monthly Question What do you do outside of running for health; physical, mental or emotional?

@ddmom0811 Thoughts and prayers for your dh and you. I'm so scattered, or its hard to focus on what isn't consuming me. best of luck on the interview. @shanaber great that insurance is moving forward. tattoo I did talk to dd about it. She told me about a cousins decision to get one and how dumb it was, an infinity sign. I…

eat all the foods. life is short. :heart:

Thanks!

@HonuNui Would it be possible to work with your tattoo artist on a design? I found something I like just think it needs or is missing something, I like how clean yours is too. Maybe even @Avidkeo you'd have someone that can add a Maori twist to something. If you know anyone just let me know.

Thank you. This disruption has taken my focus off what is important. So Eric and I got to place to not discuss it. Hopefully all is over with regarding her. I'll see Alex's friends Thursday and even more of them so I look forward to recapturing the time with them. I told Eric about how wonderful it was to see Alex this…

Well my intention was to deescalate the situation and not invite further chaos from her. I told DH I'd burn some *kitten* and give her those ashes. Thursday I don't plan on being nice. She keeps texting Alex too. Tomorrow I'm having his number put on an old phone so I can document her nut case like behavior.

I hope so. I told DH that I bet she pulls some crap, tries to steal the urn at service or something. She's nuts. DH even told the director, "I'm a counselor and she's nuts"

@ddmom0811 my ex appears to be sniffin' 'round. This woman is in her 30's. I think she is manipulating him for something of value to pawn. Actually asked me if she could bring her kids to view Alex. Sure. Bad parent of the year, do that.

yall. let me tell you. I got some d.r.a.m.a. My viewing time with Alex was cut short because DD got emotional and snapped at me. This girl is processing a lot and just needed me to back up so DH and I went for a drive. She apologized and I sent her words from @Avidkeo "If you need and want, we are happy to Tangi Alex here.…

ya, Mr lady killer! I found 2 girls in his closet when he was 15. or was it 14? DH use to call him porn star over a particular incident, that I won't go in to for the sake of public decency. Sorry to be so chatty. I dont know what to do til 5pm. No one is home, just me. Eric may not even go tonight, he's not sure he can…

Well. Alex did have a way with the ladies... Thanks for the thoughts. I really do appreciate it, from everyone here.

Alex's humor. His replys are the left side. Green is a girl he was "dating".

@shanaber Thanks. I'm better after venting. DD has been a trooper through this. I know it's not over and always be that half of her is missing. I think i am going to suggest she cut a lock of her hair, which is 2+ ft long, and leave it with Alex, so they'll always be together. She'll have keepsake ashes and a necklace with…

@ddmom0811 I'm taking you up on that vent. ETA haha! I realize I just went all Mama Bear! Despite FB My day has been otherwise lovely. I love so many of Alex's friends and my heart is torn and comforted simultaneously. I got to see him today. The viewing isn't for another 5 1/2 hours, but i had to drop photos by. Oh how I…

@Avidkeo Thanks for the little bit of NZ. I watched Casketeers on netflix, the experiences of a NZ funeral director. Worth the watch, i think. Thank you for the aroha,

Thanks all. We're managing. Arrangements finalized, which seemed to be an insurmountable task, but its come together. DD has taken it hard but shes helped with getting photos and has spent a lot of time with friends and her cousin. My existence just hurts. @quilteryoyo wow poor Shawn. Glad hes good. Alex

Alex killed himself. I may be unavailable for a while.

Oh he’s fine. Dh saw a loose dog and thought it got bear. He’s just over protective. Boogin’ Bear had been outside for 3 or 4 hours and it was just time for him to come in, ‘twas hot. Dh went for a run and then went to Lowe’s but bought nothing I wanted. I think he forgot I wanted the giant tree bush thing. Maybe tomorrow.…

@shanaber wow! Congratulations on the drop (weight), and the rise (hr)! Jealous of the temps and rain. We’re already watering to prevent soil shifting. Dh doesn’t know it yet, but I’m about to pose a Lowe’s trip for shades and a bushy tree thing for my stubborn outside cat. Bear is awol. So once dh finds him, I’m making…

I like the way you think! I'd agree since @Lexigraph is less than 40yo and I missed it being symptomatic for 2 weeks. Hope it heals quickly! holy kitten @rheddmobile that's warm! I sure hope you get your night sky back soon. Be safe.

@ddmom0811 Your day sound busy! yet productive! I had an EMG, the nerve test on my left sciatic nerve back in... 2015 I think. It was horrible. But I don't think it'd have been so bad if everything wasn't already so angry, (that's the nerve that was damaged and at the time, losing/or had lost the myelin sheathing, running…