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sometimes i wonder when did life become so complicated? we have added so much pressure on ourselves to be "perfect", Im starting to believe that logging should only be treated as a temporary tool to teach people, would you be happy if someone told you you could NEVER ride your bike without stabilisers because you might…

i was on nuvaring, well i would say my cravings are worse but i still track , i have by all means had a few days where i massively overate so i do think that may contribute to some weight gain but my weight jumped scale wise by 10Ibs at once and never went back down just keep jumping upwards i know fat gain doesn't come on…

Hi guys So after meeting with my dietician she has said there's no more she can do for me but I have her number if I need her She thinks it's a control thing that seems to be the problem and not actually food She said it sounds like something happened that was out of my control and I took to food because that was something…

My doctor tried to get me seen earlier but even going private there seems to be a waiting period she wasn't happy about this either I have good and bad days unfortunetely my bad days are starting to outweigh my good days I was working with a coach and did great because I had his guidance and even he was just monitoring my…

Yes I defintely didn't eat 47 bananas haha !! There's a error there somewhere I think it's funny it doesn't seem to be showing on my phone

im just so afraid of being heavy again, like petrified I would always hide these feelings by restricting it gave me control , I always felt I had the control Now I feel like I don't , my body is fighting against me I'm afraid to restrict again because I fear I will never be better , but I equally fear being heavier than I…

I'm sorry if I'm coming across defensive I don't mean to be at all , I'm looking at my diary on my phone and I just can't see any of them numbers I have never logged anything near that much food so I'm thinking there's some problem with my fitness pal account online I will log on to my laptop when I get home Sorry again I…

These numbers aren't in my diary at all. I looked at these dates and mine are all under 1600 calories for them days ? I've came to accept yes maybe I've gained abit of weight maybe because I haven't been a digilent as I used to be with my tracking when I was actively losing weight and basically I can't eat what other…

Ed - eating disorder .. Restrictive type!

I know it's not all fat gain because of the sudden jumps and fat gain doesn't happen that fast but whether it be fat gain or water gain it's still showing physically my boots that were previously abit loose on my calves wouldn't fit me last night at all , like I couldn't tie them up My work pants are ALL too small even the…

No I've never ate 10,000-15,000 calories ? I don't know where in my food diary that is No it is everywhere my legs are very big in comparison to what they were even at Xmas , but I can see it everywhere in my arms upper body but my stomach and legs are most obvious and my face aswell That's the thing my strength hasn't…

My weight might be ok by the BMI chart, but I'm very uncomfortable at this weight Put the scale aside I don't fit into any of my clothes even my new ones now at this stage I lift consistently in the gym but I look 10 times less firm than I did a few months ago People have commented on my face being chubbier looking…

Ok sorry 20Ibs since my lowest I meant , I suppose I mean 20ibs not intentionally , 10ibs since Xmas .. I don't want to get down to 100Ibs again I agree that is too light but 10ibs since Xmas is crazy I have by no means ate that much to gain that , I still eat relatively good a lot of the time bar the few episodes where I…

I'm 5'2 , I'm now 120Ibs and I can fluctuate above that but very rarely below it anymore I was 112 in January and I have been trying to avoid weighing weekly but I feel like I didn't even really see anywhere else on the scale so none of the increases were gradual I was 104 last November , yes I was expecting to see a…

Ok so being real i think i have gained quiet abit of excess fat , so say i have 10Ibs to lose I was thinking of setting my macros at 30F 180C and 100P and go from there for someone who is 5'2 i think thats a safe ground to start with , I'm in no massive hurry i just want to do it safely

So I was 105 in November today I'm around 115/116Ibs when I was 105 I was being restrictive , and cycling my food intake quiet some bit but never really went above 110Ibs but now my weight can go as high as 120Ibs , it's scary that I seem to gain so easily

Heybales I was reading a reply you made on someone else's post and found it interesting you I find I gain so water weight when I eat outside my normal food pattern like in excess of 5Ibs You said this could be because someone is still depleted ? I'm wondering is this the case with me I find it incredibly annoying the fact…

Would ye recommend I invest in a Fitbit so I can get a better indication of how much I burn daily ?

Thank you so much for linking that story ! I'm at a place now where I'd love to not log but I'm afraid in doing so because even though overeating may be a fear I really fear undereating aswell because I'm afraid I will again not give my body what it needs. Thanks for that story! I really want to get better this time just…

i feel like the fluctuations just keep getting higher and higher .. i was 115 thursday 120 friday (i haven't seen that high weight in well over a year) 117 today.. not that long ago the highest scale weight i was seeing was 108-111Ibs now. it seems like the scale is trending upwards at a alarmingly high rate and I'm scared…

I am seeing a therapist and dietician and working on it I'm not trying to dismiss I have struggled and that's why I want to cut this extra little fluff the safest way possible because if I was to do it on my own I know I'll probably end up eating too little I have gained weight (fat) whether that was by doing a reset or…

I understand what you are trying to say and I am trying my best to be body confident in my new weight but I just think that I'm currently holding a little bit excess weight than what I'm comfortable with , I have several rolls on my belly now when I sit down and my face is puffy This time I don't want to be ok I'm…

My body is healing from restriction periods , I have restricted a lot in the past and basically have lost my period ( still hasn't returned) I also suffered basically depression brought on by lack of food my doctor said my body was basically shutting down what wasn't vital I would think I have been on a reset since…

Any help ? I really want to get on the right track I feel kind of lost at the moment I don't know what to do

oh this is interesting I've been having psylium husk in my oatmeal and I've blown up like a balloon , I've gained like 10Ibs scale weight , i normally have like 6g of it, could this cause it ?

I'm just after having a REALLY bad day food wise , I feel like every ounce of motivation went out the window and not only could I not stop eating all day but I ate my weight in sweets on top of it I know one of the reasons is because I am extremely sleep deprived and kept trying to "pick myself up" unfortunately with food…

i know the worst possible thing I could do now is restrict again or else I'm going to spend the rest of my life restricting I've just had a few days where I haven't tracked as diligently as I am used to and I suppose all of it combining is getting on top of me

Yep I went to see a therapist and she said i do actually have great insight to what's going on.. I just feel very uncomfortable at the moment I was fine the last 3 weeks but this week I'm feeling very heavy in myself and just uncomfortable , my belly is Starting to stick out over my pants and I'm having self image issues…

I just feel like I don't have control over what's happening at the moment , My immediate reaction if I ever seen the scale creep in the wrong direction before was to restrict now I feel like if I restrict I'm taking a massive leap backwards Seeing 112 on the scale is very hard for me to accept , 105 was my comfort zone I…

Ya i totally agree with you , my thinking is irrational and has been for some length of time now.. after spending about 10minutes crying I reminded myself why i started this again this time, I'm so tired of fearing food and having my mind consumed around food. I scares me that the weight came on so hard and fast this time…