BrandiStarr87 Member

Thanks you guys :) you're all so nice and supportive. I want tacos :( lol

I'm trying. Thank you :)

Oh, gotcha. haha. I did mean it. That is how I feel. Sometimes worse than other times.. but it's still there. It's still hard to breathe. It hurts. and when I think about trying to find someone new... my stomach turns. It isn't healthy. I have got hardcore abandonment issues... I can't give people up very easily, I really…

I didn't mean to make it bold. Guess I hit the button and didn't realize it. Lol. and determined... I am really trying to look at it that way. In fact, I told him that. He was all upset about hurting me... and I told him that I wouldn't trade it for anything.. because he made me a better person, and being with him was the…

He was pretty much the first I ever truly loved and trusted too. He didn't...take advantage of it or anything like that.. he appreciated me.. he just wasn't in love with me, and my weight was a problem. I understood... but it still hurt more than anything. The biggest part of me, wants to try again, with someone else...…

Thank you, Dragn77. I've never trusted other people... I didn't even mean to trust him, it just happened. *rolls eyes*.. life is so stupid sometimes. Lol. I'm glad you're feeling better, and I hope you continue to. Thank you for the advice, and good luck to you too. :)

I miss donuts. I haven't had donuts in months. Lol. DON'T TEMPT ME. I'm doing so good. Lol.

Probably. But not for me. My long term memories are clearer than my short term ones.. and they're more painful.

Probably so... just seems to be the advice I get from everyone. that I need to let go, and move on.

Omg that's cute! Lol. Thank you :)

aww :(

:( I'm sorry that sucks! Thank you for your comment. :)

*sighs*

It's only 4:07 here. Still almost an hour to go. Blah. And then an hour drive home. Yay.

Yeah, I did wanna do the eating bored thing... I had some broth instead. I'd love to move back to the North East.. but I doubt I ever will. :(

I wish it was raining. I hate sunshine. Lol. That sounded way more negative than I meant for it to. I live in Texas though.. it just shines WAY too much. I miss the North East.

I don't really have coworkers. Lol.

If I worked at McDonalds... how would I be on a computer... o.o As for the truth or dare thing... hmmmm lol. I dunno...

Lol how would that work?

I'm 27 :)

*sighs*... I didn't mean are my goals bad.. I meant does the goal system help. Lol. I'm not upset or anything about your answers. It's not phentermine. I did try that once though, didn't help. Just made me feel... high. Lol. And my chicken strips... geez. They aren't off limits FOREVER... they just are for NOW. by the time…

Yes I'm on medication for the PCOS. I'm on a really restrictive diet because NOTHING else worked. Also, yes I have ONE goal as a food reward but it's not the entire reward, and it's tiny and insignificant. I really don't think two chicken strips are going to kill me, and I don't allow it until nearly the midway point so I…

Well, this will probably ruffle feathers, but no. I didn't leave him. I told him if he didn't want to be with me, then he could go any time he pleased. I'm not doing it for him, and I told him that. I also told him I probably won't lose much, and if he wants to go then, that's fine too. I'm doing it because I was feeling…