EmiLouize

Hii :) you're so right that depression can have so many adverse affects on not only your diet or regime, but also your body image and perception of yourself. furthermore, the lack of motivation it causes can make trying to change your lifestyle so hard. I know how you feel, and I'll be here for you if you want me to be!

Thanks for your help. I really can't drink much water though, it really is a problem for me, even with the amount of fluids I'm drinking now I still have to go to the bathroom at least once an hour. But thank you anyway I haven't just ignored your comments and of course I'll take them into account

That's fair enough. I did listen to you and calculated my TDEE as I was instructed to do. I just thought in the meantime I'd share how I thought 1200 calories was doing for me so far :(

It was. Exercise 3x per week. BMR came out around 1250.

Yeah I'm really enjoying the snarky assumptions being made about me right now.

Ignoring is different to politely suggesting that their advice might not be correct for me

I also used a TDEE calculator and it gave me a result of 1777.

But the point of my question is that I only experience the headaches and stuff if I workout early in the day. When I exercise in the evening I feel great! I was just wondering why the time of day could affect me so much, is all :/

I did read them :)

I feel like 1200 is a good amount for me, I'm not often extremely hungry and I still get to eat things I enjoy. If I ate any more than that I wouldn't even feel like I was trying to lose weight :/ if I get anywhere near 2000 calories I feel like I've binged on a sickening amount of food

And I'm eating about 1200 calories overall at the moment :)

I can't drink as much as I would like throughout the day because I need to wee too frequently hahah. I used to take a bottle of water with me everywhere but I soon got seriously fed up of having to go to the bathroom every 30 minutes.

But I hate gyms. :(

Eeeek. I can't afford anything like that haha. I'm on a gap year between A Levels and university at the moment (no fancy holidays or volunteer work, I need to earn and save some money) and at the moment I only earn like £100 per month. So even £40 is a huge chunk of my money that I'm trying to save! :0

Thanks everyone :D

I've never done any weight lifting of any sort before. I just feel like I'd be more comfortable getting started on my own at home.

Haha I'm not sure if I would be 'missing out' as such. ;P I don't even know if 35kg is a good amount of weight for me. There's another set with 25kg, would that be too light?

I wasn't trying to offend anyone or belittle anyone else's struggles. I'm sure I explained in my post that the way I feel about myself is directly related to bullying. Of course I don't think that anyone who is overweight should never leave the house; I just feel like other people think like that due to what I've…

I'd definitely feel better in an Average Joe gym too :P I also understand what you mean about dress codes, if everyone's dressed modestly I'd certainly feel better about myself. Thanks so much for your advice, every little compliment means the world to me so I really appreciate it! I've decided I'm gonna go and take a look…

Thanks everyone.

Thanks for all the advice. I just wish it could be as easy as 'just go and do it' for me. I'm certainly not lazy or making excuses; I do cardio and bodyweight strength training at home regularly. When you've had remarks made about your body from such a young age, you honestly believe they're true. One of the most…

Thanks for all your help so far. You're all very encouraging! :)

The only friend I have who goes to the gym only goes for cardio. My boyfriend's been asking if we could join the gym together (he definitely wants to do some strength training because he's just skin, bone and a layer of muscle) but my fears are holding me back. He's an absolutely lovely guy who's been with me since I was…

What I'm most worried about is starting strength training. I think I could just about manage to jump on a treadmill for 45 minutes with my earphones in, but I'll be way more exposed using free weights or whatever. I also have a horrible phobia of mirrors and seeing my reflection, so the thought of having to watch my form…