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Right, the more I think about it now the more I know that person/people were just being *kitten*. I do miss feeling good about what I wore at the time. I traveled the world for a year and a half but I didn't take any pictures of me because I hated me and how I looked. I regret that, but I miss liking myself enough to want…

^ Going to the beach.

Soon to be structural engineer, may or may not have competed in WoW/Dota2/Counter Strike stuff. :P Just here to creep on other nerds hah

Rizwan Manji from that show Outsourced.

:) I'm so glad I'm able to help in some way! Hang in there it does have a happy ending I promise- and I'm a sucker for fairy tales hah haha thanks!!! Dude its total black magic vudoo *kitten* sometimes. Makes zero sense. down 1 pound...2 days later up 7....take 4 days to get back to original weight....wait no back up 1…

Yeah I always loved heels even while bigger but never wore them. They hurt my knees too much and I didn't want people to notice me. I always felt embarrassed etc. Now I'm like YOLO I'll rock these heels to random errands deal with it. haha. Was nice when a older woman who was a total stranger came up to me and said how…

Yeah I didn't want to take pics or measure- because I was so annoyed/depressed about how it was. And it really didn't change much for awhile in pics and I wasn't sure i was even measuring myself in the same places each time lol. But I kept at it and eventually kept seeing slight changes. The clothing fitting was the best…

Thank you! :) Yeah I mean not everything I did/doing is probably right but it was right for me and may work for someone. Least part of it etc. I'm an instant gratfication person too lol I want to see results and I'm very organized so to me it drove me nuts I'd do everything to a T what this said to do and I wouldn't see a…

Thank you everyone for your kind messages :) I certainly felt a lot like it was impossible or never going to happen at the end, so its refreshing to share that it DOES give results. <3

Hah thanks! Yeah my mom and friends tell me how long my legs are all the time now. When I sat there and thought jesus christ i have 150-160 lbs to lose back at the begining I wanted to quit right then. So to make it feel less intimdating I just broke it down into mile stones. Every 20lbs, or special BMI category changes…

Yeah thats definitely the hardest part, to me. Was keeping myself enthused about this. Not feeling depressed that it was taking forever. Not being able to see a difference. No one noticing they saw a difference. Seeing gains for no reason. Seeing 8-14 days go by seeing no scale change and thinking I wasted more time. That…

Yeah definitely don't take offense no worries, I know I looked old and felt old lol. From about 18 yrs onward everyone always assumed I was 4-6 yrs older than I was. I just felt like eh whatever I wanted to be older anyways hah. But I do even see that myself that I look (and feel) so much younger now at 28 than I did even…

lol yes getting smaller definitely costs me more money than I had planned. I love heels. I had some but never wore them when I was heavy. I didn't really feel comfortable or want to draw attention to myself. I hated being tall and etc. Now lol I think I have and entire wall of heels in my closet and I even wear them to the…

and yeah feel free to add me if you want to creep/be buddies/look at diaries etc. I keep everything open for friends even when I have some weird *kitten* choices in there I just show what I do flat out. I'm finishing up finals coming up so I'm not as super social on peoples walls like normal but usually my friends and I…

thanks <3 Which is hilarious my weight at 304 wasn't on my legs much. I still had pretty nice legs from playing soccer for so long. It was all in my middle/upper body. And just because you use your legs to run and do cardio etc they just got better and better, even still. And I hear it quite a bit and it cracks me up…

What I noticed, for me, was that I would exercise one day. The next day my weight would actually be slightly up for that day and if I was going to lose it was going to be the next day after that, that I'd see the "drop". The weight loss for me was pretty quick at the start but thats usually how it goes and I was probably…

Yeah definitely after keeping track on a big wall calendar it was easy to see I'd lose at certain points, gain in others. Sometimes have 8-14 days of nothing for no reason but it would end up averaging back out because I'd lose more than 2 lbs the next week etc. Keeping track daily kept me motivated and calmer I think than…

hah thanks! :) Yeah I tried to just focus on small goals as I went with little prizes along the way for myself.

Thanks!!!! :) <3

Thank you soooooo much!!!! <3 I'm having a blast and I really am so glad I did this and stuck with it. And more than welcome any new friends that need someone enthusiastic and positive in their life :)

:D Np!! I was going to do it at 100lbs gone but talked myself out of it hah So better late than never. I'll certainly update it when I'm at the "end"- which I'm very excited about getting there eventually. There's definitely a lot of ups and downs on this road. Days or weeks people don't notice or don't say things so that…

You guys are so sweet, thank you! I guess what made me the most motivated was that I truly am I positive, enthusiastic, happy person always at heart and on the inside but when I hated my outside I always hid it. I never wanted people to notice me or to stand out. Stupid I know. But its so refreshing to smile and feel semi…

<3 I keep telling you and all my buddies on my friends list. You all inspire me so much more than I feel I inspire you hah. I love logging on to see the progress and exciting news from you guys. xox You helped me change my own life. I hope I can return that favor hah And yeah, yeah, I'm a giant academic nerd :P

Thank you! :) You're always super awesome and a great friend~ Nice! Yeah I mean if I can do it--litearlly anyone can do this. Just find what keeps you as excited as you can and it makes it enjoyable. I use monthly planners with stickie notes for short term goals to get excited about, a large wall calendar for progress…

Thanks! :) Like I said I hope I can make at least someone realize what they're doing IS worth it and it DOES get better even when you think it isn't. Even I don't always see a difference but I know somethingggg is different and I at least feel better inside. <3 Oh yeah ps having braces since November....You don't get to…

Thanks!!! :) Yeah I haven't tried too much to fiddle with the recipe thing. I love the barcode scanner on the phone app- its probably my fave thing to do ever because I'm a nerd haha. I save some recipes and cook some stuff from scratch but usually its also a time thing. I'm a full time student studying structural…

Oh thanks everyone! :) Yeah I do try to mix in healthy foods but its not out of "requirement" I do it because I want to try new foods. I don't have some stuff like the super bad for you fast foods just because its too difficult to manage the calorie counting when the entire day can be blown on 1 meal item easily. I prefer…

Also a college student working toward being a healthy fit me for my big move to graduate school in the next year. I have been around here since last May, lost 115lbs so far. Feel free to add me :)

Stacey Dash mixed with Kerry Washington and Paula Patton. :)

Soulful.