Out of the 300s... Yay?

Ceratopsy

Sooooo, its been 6 months and I am out of the 300s. I am at 292 which I know is awesome but I am finding it really depressing and I don't know why or how to shake it. Last week when I went shopping, I got new pants that were size 26. I hadn't stopped wearing my size 30s so the fact that 26 actually fit was blowing my mind but I wasn't happy, I actually just wanted to crawl up in a little ball in the dressing room and never come out. I do see the changes in my body, I see I'm smaller but its almost like I dislike my body now more than ever. I am reasoning with myself that its a good thing, I feel better, I do eat better, I enjoy working out, and I know I am not going to quit or stop but I can't shake this weight of sadness. Any tips or thoughts or similar stories guys and gals?

zilannoj

Firstly, congratulations on the amazing progress!

I read a blog entry last night that summed up everything I've experienced with losing and gaining weight. I've experienced the same feeling in the past. She explained that being fat, though you are bigger, is like being invisible. There's comfort in it, because no one really pays attention to you. But as you lose weight, you feel more exposed. And there's something really uncomfortable about that. I guess because I've never experienced that before.

I'm not sure if that's something you're feeling, but I've dealt with that for quite a while. I really don't know what else to say other than keep pushing on. I think sometimes our minds aren't ready to align with our bodies, so it just takes time, self-care and patience. Take time for yourself and find something that allows you to vent out your frustration (writing, reading books, starting personal vlogs and talking about what you're going through).

shballa

Congratulations! I have recently crossed the 300 boundary myself and I know how you feel. When I was larger, I didn't realize how big I really was. Denial I guess. Now that I am paying attention to what I eat and losing weight, I look in the mirror a lot more. It helps me to look back on old pictures to see how far I have come. I am also in a 26, and it feels great to be able to shop at Walmart, etc., and not in specialty stores. In response to jocoblossoming, I feel like I am being judged by people around me. I have lost enough weight that there is no way people in my everyday life could not notice by now. Some people have commented, which is awkward. I never know what to say. When I think about how far I have to go, I try to focus on mini-goals, and not long term. There are lots of people on MFP who are just starting at weights far below my current weight. I know some day I will get there, too. I try to stick to forums like this one for people who have the same types of issues that I am dealing with.