The horrible rotten bad binge day....

SandiW02

Yes - today was it for me. I woke up had my cereal, went to the gym. While at the gym did my weight routine and for cardio did the C25K Day 1. My ankle feels great and I wanted to get back at it. So 35 minutes on the treadmill and I am heading home. I drink my protein shake, shower, and get ready to pay our car tax and return a printer via UPS to Lexmark. So far so good (yes, I took my vitamins this am). The I go to Wal-Mart to return the ankle brace...then my day went to crap. I went to the 'deli' and ordered the food for Saturday night's scout party - then I got 10 ranch chicken wings, a small container of mac and cheese, and 6 cheese sticks. OOps did I mention the 6 pack of cupcakes - my mind was in a blur!!!! I walked up to redbox and got a movie and away I went. While in the car I scarfed down the 6 cheese sticks, got home cracked open a soda - put in the movie and ate ALL the chicken wings and mac and cheese. By this point I am feeling sick but since I seemed to be in some sort of sadistic trance I oped the chocolate cupcakes and started to eat one. The first bite was delicious. Then the second bite hit my mouth and it was like I woke up....I spit it into the trash can and just stood there thinking 'WHAT IN THE HE%% DID YOU JUST DO YOU IDIOT!!!" I dumped the soda down the drain and waited for the vomit - didn't come - waited and my stomach hurt so bad...Well after a few sips of water I just could not function so I just sat in sugar land....forced myself to go to Zumba tonight and while I feel much better I swear I am still burping ranch chicken wings. I still have a headache and my stomach hurts. I am forgetting the protein shake not because I am over my calories but because I am afraid I may throw it up. Long story short - today I was an idiot. I fell back into the habit I am fighting to get out of. I refuse to feel guilty when I have had 41 years to make the bad habit but only 55 days of trying to correct it. I am making a choice now to get back on track and make better choices.

This is life today. My life. I am the size I am today - I am smaller and wiser than I was yesterday - and while tomorrow is never promised I will make better decisions. Now where is my water?!?!?!?

miranda823

It happens! I did something similar yesterday, and wanted to throw up the whole time I was working out. The important part is we realize what we did, and we do our best to make up for it. I am so proud of you for going to Zumba especially since you probably felt like crap! Don't let today define you. You are better than that. Take care.

bearcrusher

At least you stopped yourself. Oh well we all slip sometimes, we're all human.

I've already decided on my punishment for when I finally do cheat.1 week of veggie shake fasting (a 7 day plan from http://www.rebootwithjoe.com/) so I've been afraid to cheat knowing how much it'll suck to only drink veggies and not get my meat.

SandiW02

Besides the way I felt the scale went up 1.8 lbs - adding insult to injury. Well that was yesterday and today I have been in a good mood despite the scale. I went to the commissary and purchased some items to help me stay successful and make better choices.

Thanks for having my back. I am glad I was able to snap back before really doing any kind of damage...now on to damage repair.

Afura

Man now I want wings. I completely believe that we sometimes have an auto-pilot when it comes to food. Llike ordering a coke in the drive through, or fries with that order, grabbing a milky way at checkout, etc. Agreed with the others, you snapped out of it, and now not wallowing. Besides, I bet that gain is bloat. Next week you'll kick *kitten*,