I'm new & need some emotional support
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i am annette and I am under a tremendous amount of stress and really have very little support.
I really don't want to write a huge book here so I can just hit the topics: court w/ex husband who's new wife is distroying my life financially & emotionally by first taking our children from me, parenting alienation on my ex's part toward me, job losses, surgeries, been homeless, been evicted, now have to rent rooms, long commutes to work, psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, work stress, long work hours, nastygrams from ex if I try to see the children for even 5 mins outside my court ordered time, threats to take me back to court, no SO, family in another state, it continues.......
So I noticed that i was slipping into a depression and just binging till I am gaining back a lot of weight i worked hard to lose after my cancer battle.
I've noticed that I have also ground down my front teeth from grinding them at night.
I need support and friends. I am tired of feeling alone. I am 45 and can only rent rooms in other people's homes. I cry a lot because I miss my kids and I don't understand why they were taken or how without any evidence or proof I am an unfit mother. Why my ex wants to dissolve my parental rights when I've devoted my life to our children even as far as being a stay at home mom and practicing attachment parenting with our children.
I don't know. I just need to feel like people care since my family turned their back when the kids were sent to his house to live. Including my own mother.
Wednesday i got news that it looks like I have to have another surgery because cancer may be trying to enter my life again after 11 years of being free from it. I've already had so many surgeries on my female anatomy that now even my outer area of my down south area seems to be the next area for reconstruction. Some days I feel incomplete as a woman.
I know this is a lot but I can't handle it with only prayer anymore.
Can just even a couple of you just sometimes let me vent, encourage me to keep going on my wall, let me cry to you when it gets too much, and laugh at ourselves when we are cracking ourselves up with our own stupid jokes?
I really don't want to write a huge book here so I can just hit the topics: court w/ex husband who's new wife is distroying my life financially & emotionally by first taking our children from me, parenting alienation on my ex's part toward me, job losses, surgeries, been homeless, been evicted, now have to rent rooms, long commutes to work, psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, work stress, long work hours, nastygrams from ex if I try to see the children for even 5 mins outside my court ordered time, threats to take me back to court, no SO, family in another state, it continues.......
So I noticed that i was slipping into a depression and just binging till I am gaining back a lot of weight i worked hard to lose after my cancer battle.
I've noticed that I have also ground down my front teeth from grinding them at night.
I need support and friends. I am tired of feeling alone. I am 45 and can only rent rooms in other people's homes. I cry a lot because I miss my kids and I don't understand why they were taken or how without any evidence or proof I am an unfit mother. Why my ex wants to dissolve my parental rights when I've devoted my life to our children even as far as being a stay at home mom and practicing attachment parenting with our children.
I don't know. I just need to feel like people care since my family turned their back when the kids were sent to his house to live. Including my own mother.
Wednesday i got news that it looks like I have to have another surgery because cancer may be trying to enter my life again after 11 years of being free from it. I've already had so many surgeries on my female anatomy that now even my outer area of my down south area seems to be the next area for reconstruction. Some days I feel incomplete as a woman.
I know this is a lot but I can't handle it with only prayer anymore.
Can just even a couple of you just sometimes let me vent, encourage me to keep going on my wall, let me cry to you when it gets too much, and laugh at ourselves when we are cracking ourselves up with our own stupid jokes?
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Your story brings tears and speaks to me on a personal level. I'm eighteen, and while I don't yet have children of my own, I can promise you that my story is LONG and very similar to yours. The differences make it something I'm not exactly willing to divulge to the public--I'd be happy to tell you over PM if you want to talk--but, bottom line, I too know what it's like to suffer from the stress of poverty, depression, aloneness, and dysfunctional relationships. On top of all that, I have a legitimate and serious sugar addiction that puts me at risk for Type-II diabetes, and, regarding cancer, both my parents as well as several other close family members have had it.
Please message me. I know my ordeal doesn't seem like much, but perhaps I could help give you some closure and support....I know I've been needing it myself. I wouldn't wish such stress upon my worst enemies. Let's be friends?0 -
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wow.. That's a lot on your plate. Really. I have a ton of sympathy for you. first get yourself together. I don't know the particulars, but fight tooth and nail for your kids. And getting in shape will just show that you are willing to be a great example for them on the health front. Give yourself a binge day, and counter it with one low calorie day. You can manage one low calorie day, and then reward yourself on the other end. It will balance out. That way you won't feel so deprived. just make sure, for example, if you have an 800 day your binge day isn't more than 2200... but as far as support, you have it when you need it, just ask! Good luck on your journey.0
