Massive NSV
SlimBride2Be
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I have to share as my fiance doesn't understand these things ;-)
Went to shops today as was finding it hard to find clothes in the closet that didn't drown me - I tried on a top I liked and had to put all my clothes back on and run back into the store to pick up another size... a UK 12 (US 8!!!) This is the smallest I have ever been as an adult! OBVIOUSLY I bought it there and then!
So then I was curious - were the clothes just generously sized in that shop? I suspected not as its a shop for younger women, but then I went to some designer stores (we all know they size quite small) and tried on more - and I was a true size 12 EVERYWHERE! I ended up buying another top in a size S from another shop! An S!
I feel like I must have major body dysmorphia as honestly I feel as big as when I started, 15kg/28lb ago. I look in the mirror and see a slightly flatter stomach - that's literally it. I have dropped 2 dress sizes and I feel exactly the same.
No-one at work has commented (it's a relatively new job so maybe they don't feel comfortable saying anything?), my fiance doesn't really talk about weight or looks, he's an academic so his mind is always on much more important matters, and my mum, who is weight obsessed, only said 'oh you look like you have been running around and not eating much' which is very faint praise for her -- but it might have more to do with the fact that I told her a couple of years ago that weight as a topic for conversation was permanently off limits (she bullied me for 20 years over my weight).
But with no-one noticing it's harder to believe the difference.
I only have one more dress size (10kg? Maybe less? Will know when I get there) to drop before I go wedding dress shopping and I know I need to get my head around the weight loss but it's hard.
Anyway, that's my little victory for the day. Low carb/paleo is the BOMB!
Went to shops today as was finding it hard to find clothes in the closet that didn't drown me - I tried on a top I liked and had to put all my clothes back on and run back into the store to pick up another size... a UK 12 (US 8!!!) This is the smallest I have ever been as an adult! OBVIOUSLY I bought it there and then!
So then I was curious - were the clothes just generously sized in that shop? I suspected not as its a shop for younger women, but then I went to some designer stores (we all know they size quite small) and tried on more - and I was a true size 12 EVERYWHERE! I ended up buying another top in a size S from another shop! An S!
I feel like I must have major body dysmorphia as honestly I feel as big as when I started, 15kg/28lb ago. I look in the mirror and see a slightly flatter stomach - that's literally it. I have dropped 2 dress sizes and I feel exactly the same.
No-one at work has commented (it's a relatively new job so maybe they don't feel comfortable saying anything?), my fiance doesn't really talk about weight or looks, he's an academic so his mind is always on much more important matters, and my mum, who is weight obsessed, only said 'oh you look like you have been running around and not eating much' which is very faint praise for her -- but it might have more to do with the fact that I told her a couple of years ago that weight as a topic for conversation was permanently off limits (she bullied me for 20 years over my weight).
But with no-one noticing it's harder to believe the difference.
I only have one more dress size (10kg? Maybe less? Will know when I get there) to drop before I go wedding dress shopping and I know I need to get my head around the weight loss but it's hard.
Anyway, that's my little victory for the day. Low carb/paleo is the BOMB!
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Congratulations on your new size! Really hope you are able to wrap your head around the loss. Body dysmorphia is actually not a good thing.0
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Awesome!! The tape measure doesn't lie. How long have you been eating LC? I'm so excited for you to actually be at goal for your wedding.0
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I have been eating low carb for six weeks. Only six weeks! The fat has just melted away which is amazing really. I've been hungry about 6 times and the rest of the time I feel great. Upping the fat and protein helps a LOT. I have a year to the wedding now so I'm going to start slowing down - but you have to purchase the dress about 9 months ahead and I didn't want to go shopping at a larger size. Maintaining for 9 months will, I suspect, be the far bigger challenge than the losing.0
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Great NSV! I do think the mind is slower to catch up than the body for many of us. I'm still not sure I see what everyone else sees right now. I am still grabbing the wrong size clothes when I shop; and the wrong size shoes!0
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That's fantastic, congratulations on achieving these results so quickly. *And* for disallowing your mother from having an opinion. We don't need bullies and their opinions thank you very much
Wishing you all the best for your maintenance phase.0 -
Thank you all so much.
Yes it's hard to deal with people who have a problem with your weight. My mum's issues came only from wanting the best for me but at a time when I felt depressed with my weight, having someone comment constantly on it was very difficult.
When I was 11 she put me on a diet and weighed me weekly - she would only give me my pocket money when I lost weight!
When I was 18 I didn't get into my first choice university (Oxford), and her response was 'maybe they chose someone thinner'. I was not very overweight at the time but self conscious about it - so it hurt a LOT.
In university I developed a full blown eating disorder - I did an extreme Slim Fast diet for 6 months during which I didn't even eat one meal a day - just 2 milkshakes. I was beyond miserable, made no friends and found myself sleep binging on Slim Fast bars. My mum was very complimentary about my new shape but I was so miserable inside.
This developed into several years of binging and purging on all the foods I 'wasn't allowed' and getting into destructive relationships. The combo of feeling a failure for not getting into the university I wanted and my weight put me into a serious depression.
Eventually at around 25 my parents staged an intervention. I was withdrawn and pale and always sad - and they accused me of having a drug habit. I came clean about the eating disorder and they dealt okay with it - not great but it was an improvement. A couple of years after that (and some therapy that I funded myself) I was able to make it clear that this should never be discussed again, at least without me bringing it up first.
I feel so sad that so much of my youth was blighted by 10-20kg of excess weight. I still have body image issues although they are a lot better than they used to be, and I'm marrying a man I know will love me, whatever happens. I can't get those years back but I can and will make the future the way I want it to be.0 -
Wow, you've overcome so much...I love seeing victories like this... I reminds me that there really is a world of possibilities out there still...0
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Truly, I would never discuss this topic with your mother again. That is just abusive, good intentions or not. Your weight is not WHO.YOU.ARE.0
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Congratulations!!! In general regular clothing fluctuate if you buy off brand, I have no clue how they're made!?
I am 3.5 months in eating Keto and I dropped from size 10 to 8 or 6 depending on the brand, I think I'm somewhere around 7 lol
I'd say buy bigger size dress because you can alter it later, if you find one that you really like buy it now!
Happy upcoming wedding as well, I wish some of my brides (I'm a photographer) would take care of the weight before the wedding, so I'm happy to see your accomplishments! Keep on keeping on!0 -
Great job on the NSV. I hope you're feeling healthier as well, and what your mother did may have had good intentions but was wrong. I'm glad you're able to get past that.0
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