05/21/2015- today I celebrate
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carimiller7391
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Good morning ladies and gents!!!!
It's been a wierd couple of days for me. I got down to 297... then bounced back to 299.5. I'm still below the 300 mark, but not by much. This morning I printed off a goal pic of myself from my cell phone. It's a pic of my from the day I graduated high school. It's also my goal weight, size I'd like to be. Where I felt most comfortable and confident. Where I felt the most comfortable in my own skin. If that makes sense. I have a follow up appointment next Friday with my surgeon and would love to be at 295. This is so much harder than I thought it would be. I read all the articles on obesityhelp.com where the weight is just falling off of people, and then there is me, where I fight for every ounce. I don't get it, it just doesn't make sense to me. I posted the goal pic of me at my desk. I'm hoping having the pic will deter any grazing or bad habits from creeping back in.
So for today, I am celebrating not giving up and throwing in the towel as much as I may want to at this point. In one sense I feel defeated as I had surgery 113 days ago and have only lost 20lbs. since my actual surgery and 44lbs total. But then I remember, I could still be 44lbs heavier or worse gained more weight and be even heavier then that.
I am working on finding an outfit I like to take my new profile pic in. I thought about taking it in the black shirt I am in, in the last photo, to show the difference in size..... but not sure yet. Tonight I am going to Boscov's and BJ's and hopefully going to get to the gym. My back is not hurting as bad, so I am hoping to capitalize on that and get some exercise in. In one way, I wish I had addressed the buldging disc in my back first and then had weight loss surgery so I could exercise till my little heart was content, but it didn't work out that way for me. OH well.
So what are you celebrating today??
It's been a wierd couple of days for me. I got down to 297... then bounced back to 299.5. I'm still below the 300 mark, but not by much. This morning I printed off a goal pic of myself from my cell phone. It's a pic of my from the day I graduated high school. It's also my goal weight, size I'd like to be. Where I felt most comfortable and confident. Where I felt the most comfortable in my own skin. If that makes sense. I have a follow up appointment next Friday with my surgeon and would love to be at 295. This is so much harder than I thought it would be. I read all the articles on obesityhelp.com where the weight is just falling off of people, and then there is me, where I fight for every ounce. I don't get it, it just doesn't make sense to me. I posted the goal pic of me at my desk. I'm hoping having the pic will deter any grazing or bad habits from creeping back in.
So for today, I am celebrating not giving up and throwing in the towel as much as I may want to at this point. In one sense I feel defeated as I had surgery 113 days ago and have only lost 20lbs. since my actual surgery and 44lbs total. But then I remember, I could still be 44lbs heavier or worse gained more weight and be even heavier then that.
I am working on finding an outfit I like to take my new profile pic in. I thought about taking it in the black shirt I am in, in the last photo, to show the difference in size..... but not sure yet. Tonight I am going to Boscov's and BJ's and hopefully going to get to the gym. My back is not hurting as bad, so I am hoping to capitalize on that and get some exercise in. In one way, I wish I had addressed the buldging disc in my back first and then had weight loss surgery so I could exercise till my little heart was content, but it didn't work out that way for me. OH well.
So what are you celebrating today??
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Cari, I think it is great what you are doing. Getting that photo out will be inspirational to you! Hope you got to the gym!
I have done the opposite, as I have been sorting through all my "stuff" I have a massive amount of photos and found a few from a period in time I was much bigger than now! So I pulled that photo out and have that to look at where ....I DO NOT want to be at that weight again! At the weight I am know, I feel it on my knees and lower back....so I am struggling to find some form of exercises I can do.
I have not given up....so I think that is a NSV in itself.0 -
That's a huge NSV. Not giving up when your body is saying otherwise... HUGE.0
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