Major Binge
Shadowcub
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The binge won. 
I blew it big time last night! I was eating sandwich fillings without making sandwiches and tried to eat a small, controlled amount to boost my protein for the day. But it got the better of me and I polished off all I had of 3 items and blew my goal, AND my TDEE. 339 calories in the GAIN column. *sighs* And I was doing so well, too. On track since May 28. Abstinent since June 3. And in a moment of weakness, I threw it all away.
Oh well, nothing to do but start over!
I blew it big time last night! I was eating sandwich fillings without making sandwiches and tried to eat a small, controlled amount to boost my protein for the day. But it got the better of me and I polished off all I had of 3 items and blew my goal, AND my TDEE. 339 calories in the GAIN column. *sighs* And I was doing so well, too. On track since May 28. Abstinent since June 3. And in a moment of weakness, I threw it all away.Oh well, nothing to do but start over!
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I'm sorry to hear about your struggle. It's a bummer how this disease of compulsion gets the better of us, so as a compulsive eater I can relate. Were the sanwhich fillings a part of your food plan? Perhaps there was something on your mind that caused you to go overboard? Until we address the spiritual void that causes us to binge, and work the program like our life depends on it, that this compulsion will be nothing more than a vicious cycle.
I've been feeling yucky and depressed for the past couple days because I crashed and burned on a bike ride and I'm layed up having to depend on others to help me out, but today, as yesterdaynI don't have to eat about it. I am feeling the feelings, however painful.
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They were part of my food plan, and a few days earlier I had a couple of sandwiches and was fine. But yesterday I was short on calories so opted to skip the bread and eat 2 "breadless sandwiches" to help get some protein in without going over my goals. Ended up no stopping until everything was gone (but the bread which was never touched).
In retrospect, I think I'd have been better off making regular sandwiches and being a bit over on calories. I think the carbs and fiber might have helped fill me up and otherwise "satisfy" me. But this way, I never did feel satisfied.
Oh well, today is a new day. Day 1 of abstinence.0 -
At least you're back on track and recognize what went wrong. One day at a time, and celebrate you day of abstinence!0
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One of the places I run into trouble is around mayonaise; I don't know if that is a part of your filling, but it is a big trigger/yumyum for me. An old pattern since childhood, usually around Thanksgiving, was dipping the chunks of turkey directly into the mayo jar. Which quite often can lead to just eating mayo. Just an observation on what I've learned does NOT work for me. And as an FYI, I use mayo nearly daily to prep my husband's lunch. And I still like mayo right out of the jar
Abstinence, for me, is a growing maturing experience that asks me to be kind and loving to myself. At this moment I am graced with abstinence. And at this moment, that is enough.
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