Picking myself back up
armynurse30
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so I fell off the wagon and it's time to get back on.. Looking for support and those I can encourage as well!!
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I'd personally explore what lead up to you "falling off the wagon." That's what will get you further this time... Good luck.
For me, it's usually a) not wanting to fight with my BF - he's still convinced it's not healthy, even though he's seen the proof...b) inconvenience when home for a week at a time/vacation...c) deep craving (but when I give myself specific, limited permission, these things are less enticing and don't lead to full on down slides)...d) random crap... Most of these I can fight...some are harder...0 -
I let stress be my excuse for grabbing chocolate or sugar laden crap. I'm trying to work myself into different ways of handling the stress. It's been a rough year. lol Lots of support in this group. I love getting and getting support.0
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This doesn't apply directly to you, but the human aspect is the same "falling away" from what we know is better for us. For me after 11 months of LCHF…I CAN'T have the meat protein foods I want due to kidney disease, and some other food limits. I am even risking health with high fats …if I can't have protein or carbs…then 200 gr fats is JUST too much!
So boredom sets in..when I see all the great food LC PORN I am distracted to go for carbs, and find myself eating a lot more calories..which, for me, is a KNOWN way to gain..already up 11 over my best low weight.
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring.
I have just so many restrictions on potassium and phosphorous that knocks out free eating avocados, real cheese that I must limit them…so again, boredom.
Going to distract myself with some projects and see if that helps, and NOT having the few carb temptations around..like put the remaining ones in the cold, cold storage shed.
Am resisting accepting I CAN'T do LC..and just keep selecting the foods I can have.0 -
One thing I've found is that the days that I do "binge", I'm still lower than my average days carb intake prior to LCHF. It also seems much easier to get back to good habits and if I just lose it for a day or two then I don't have a big adjustment. Mostly I feel bloated or achy from the carbs, which happens to be a good incentive to stay away from them.0
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Thanks for the advice
all great info! Friend me if you'd like!! 0 -
KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...0 -
4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Glad I don't have any Rocky Road around. Chocolate pretzels were bad enough.
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4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.0 -
4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.0 -
Christine_72 wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.
I have tried planning for the evenings, as I sometimes have cravings that are horrendous at night. So I crave chocolate, and make fat bombs for night time, and I end up not being able to sleep oddly enough. Is there a ton of caffeine in cocoa powder and if so, do you have any other suggestions? Honestly it's all I want though, and I find if I have a fat bomb or some other extra fat (Decaf Vanilla coffee or tea with extra cream etc.) it usually keeps the craving at bay for the night!0 -
Christine_72 wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.
I have tried planning for the evenings, as I sometimes have cravings that are horrendous at night. So I crave chocolate, and make fat bombs for night time, and I end up not being able to sleep oddly enough. Is there a ton of caffeine in cocoa powder and if so, do you have any other suggestions? Honestly it's all I want though, and I find if I have a fat bomb or some other extra fat (Decaf Vanilla coffee or tea with extra cream etc.) it usually keeps the craving at bay for the night!
Do you add coconut oil to your fat bombs? I've read it gives people a kick of energy, physically and mentally, and they have trouble sleeping when they have it at night.0 -
Gooarmynurse30 wrote: »so I fell off the wagon and it's time to get back on.. Looking for support and those I can encourage as well!!
Best wishes armynurse30. I'm also picking myself back up and getting back on plan. I slowly gave in to the holiday cookies, etc. and then found myself all out on a 10 day business trip with full catering for breakfast and lunch and indulgent dinners. I'm not disciplined enough, it seems, to handle the temptations away from home and my usual routine.
I'm trying to find something for myself in the evenings after the kids go to bed. Maybe hot cocoa is a good solution if I can find one low sugar/carb enough. Any suggestions from the group are greatly appreciated.0 -
Christine_72 wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.
Interesting... I saw another post for bulletproof hot chocolate but it sounded more like a protein shake... What's in yours?0 -
Christine_72 wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.
I have tried planning for the evenings, as I sometimes have cravings that are horrendous at night. So I crave chocolate, and make fat bombs for night time, and I end up not being able to sleep oddly enough. Is there a ton of caffeine in cocoa powder and if so, do you have any other suggestions? Honestly it's all I want though, and I find if I have a fat bomb or some other extra fat (Decaf Vanilla coffee or tea with extra cream etc.) it usually keeps the craving at bay for the night!
I have never tried a fat bomb.0 -
4031isaiah wrote: »Christine_72 wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.
Interesting... I saw another post for bulletproof hot chocolate but it sounded more like a protein shake... What's in yours?
@4031isaiah check out my diary in pm snacks, that's my recipe. Tonight I'm leaving out the coconut oil and dropping in a peanut butter/choc fat bomb which is loaded with coconut oil.
The other recipe you saw was probably mine as well. I was using protein powder, but swapped to cacao to save calories, plus my protein was going through the roof everyday.0 -
Christine_72 wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KETOGENICGURL wrote: »......
I begin each day recommitted, and fail late at night..so THAT is where I need to solve the problem.maybe just going to bed earlier will fix it. Dunno. Am angry at myself for undoing the hard work of last Spring. ....
You are singing my song sister! Weight Watchers used to call that the "grapefruit for breakfast, Rocky Road (ice cream) for dinner diet"... I have been on that one for what seems like years.
I start the day out great with a good breakfast, I pack appropriate lunches and often even stay on track for dinner... My problem is often what happens after dinner... My DH is a shift worker and I'm often on my own with the kids in the evenings. That's when things seem to fall to pieces.
I've even tried saving my workouts for the evening to give me something to do instead of snack but so far, that hasn't proven to be a consistent solution...
Instead of avoiding the issue, try planning for it. I added cream to tea, or created special fat bombs I can only have at night. Make a cup of chocolate mousse (just heavy cream with cocoa powder, sweetener, and sometimes vanilla)... Make it something you know you can safely have, but that you can only have at night, and only a set portion...
Also, try restricting less in the mornings. Our bodies have the most ... carb flexibility in the mornings. Try to have the least amount of carbs at night, start off your day with something seemingly indulgent, and the snacking, etc., urges will seem less intense, I bet!
Great idea @KnitOrMiss ! I don't actually eat Rocky Road (I can't do dairy). That's just what Weight Watchers called the diet plan that starts out healthy and ends with a crash and burn. For me, it's usually chocolate.
I think I will plan for some kind of decadent chocolate almond milk smoothie or hot drink. Maybe if I make it rich and sip it slowly for the evening it will stretch and be satisfying. Maybe having something planned to look forward to and worked into my day will make it not seem like a failed day.
That's what I do after dinner most nights. I make a BFHC= Bullet Proof Hot Chocolate.
I have tried planning for the evenings, as I sometimes have cravings that are horrendous at night. So I crave chocolate, and make fat bombs for night time, and I end up not being able to sleep oddly enough. Is there a ton of caffeine in cocoa powder and if so, do you have any other suggestions? Honestly it's all I want though, and I find if I have a fat bomb or some other extra fat (Decaf Vanilla coffee or tea with extra cream etc.) it usually keeps the craving at bay for the night!
Personally, I find if I include chocolate in some form earlier in the day, I don't crave it at night. If I do, a single square or two of dark chocolate, at least 85% dark, really does the trick. Some add a swipe of unsweetened nut butter to up the fat content even more...
But it isn't the caffeine in cocoa (which should be minimal, due to processing) that's the problem. It is the coconut oil in your fat bombs. Either just use a combo of butter and cream cheese or something - or use coconut butter or something else (I dunno if it is any better). The Lauric acid in coconut oil is essentially like brain fuel (though it is less intense than the caprlytic acid in MCT oil which requires less processing and goes straight to powering the brain)... For folks sensitive to it, coconut oil should be avoided in the same time frame as one would normally avoid caffeine.
Cocoa powder stirred into heavy cream, then sweetened to tolerance and whipped makes a nice chocolate mousse. You can use cocoa butter (can be bought online or health food stores) to up your cocoa flavor and make fat bombs without the coconut oil. @DittoDan has a recipe on his blog for reconstructing chocolate, too.
Melting chocolate with peanut butter, too, and maybe whipping in butter or heavy cream can be nice, too, if those aren't triggers for you.0 -
[/quote]Cocoa powder stirred into heavy cream, then sweetened to tolerance and whipped makes a nice chocolate mousse. You can use cocoa butter (can be bought online or health food stores) to up your cocoa flavor and make fat bombs without the coconut oil. @DittoDan has a recipe on his blog for reconstructing chocolate, too.
Melting chocolate with peanut butter, too, and maybe whipping in butter or heavy cream can be nice, too, if those aren't triggers for you.[/quote]
OMG. That sounds soo good. I'm treating my hubby and I to that tonight!0 -
OMG. That sounds soo good. I'm treating my hubby and I to that tonight!
If you're talking about the mousse, if you use "Special Dark" cocoa powder, generally you don't need to add vanilla, but I find if I use just a normal cocoa powder, a splash of vanilla makes all the different (sugar free vanilla coffee flavoring could be used, too)...0 -
I started If-ing because of this very thing. I have to do it at breakfast, because I know I can't control myself in the evenings. But once I was freed yourself from the notion that you are obliged to eat at a certain time, I simply don't eat in the evenings. At all. If I am eating in the evenings it is off my plan. I was able to moderate my eating when I had more calories to work with (when I was larger) but as I got smaller and the calories I needed for deficit became smaller, the more dissatisfied I was with rationing out calories. By the time I got to evening, I wanted to eat all the things. Not because I was too low on nutrients, but because I was finally alone with my thoughts, exhausted, and wanted a small reprieve from life.
I like the feeling of eating a large, indulgent meal. It makes me feel less bratty and resentful, and it gave me a strange feeling of freedom to know that I did not have to consider food for the rest of the day. I hope to one day be one of those awesome, fully whole individuals who does not reach outside herself for comfort, but within myself. But until then I find I have to be very strict around things like this.
When I was moderating my evening meal, I found eating chocolate fat bombs and flax muffins quieted my hunger the most.0
