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HLaR79
HLaR79 Posts: 1,519 Member
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Okay a two weeker!

Today i got rejected for weight loss surgery because im too fat, where i live is horrible, the surgery that could change my life is only for people skinnier then me. I am only out of the range by about 5 lbs but really, this keeping in mind that i am only 300 lbs they do this surgery on way fatter people in the states!

So goals i have 18 days until i see my specialist, i need to loose that 5 lbs so that she can resubmit my info and get me into the program!

And to keep drinking water :)

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  • bevkidd1
    bevkidd1 Posts: 265 Member
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    I need to keep clawing and scratching my way back. I feel like I'm in this dark place. I don't want to gain back everything I have lost but I have stopped my journey in it's tracks and can't get it started again. I just don't know what to do or how to get back on track. I have tried and tried...and nothing is helping. I know that nobody can do this for me. I will keep fighting until I am back to doing what I need to do. It may take some time though but I will never give up or stop fighting for the life I want. The life I have right now is not what I want. I will be doing a lot of soul searching and writing to figure out why I have landed where I am now. I will keep posting here and journaling. Something has to click in my head to get me going again.
  • jltheis7
    jltheis7 Posts: 496 Member
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    HLaR79, keep at it...you're so close!

    BevKidd, plateaus are so frustrating! My journals are the best resource to help me figure out if it's "mind, muscle or mouth" that's getting in the way. Not too mention, they show me just how much I have done.

    This is the last week of school....stressful, exciting and sad all at the same time. My goals are going to be simple:

    1) daily journaling and meditation
    2) some type of movement for 30 minutes a day
    3) follow the weekly meal plan I made, prepping the night before

    HLaR79, have you tried infused water? It is surprisingly good. My favorites right now are watermelon or cucumber.
  • bevkidd1
    bevkidd1 Posts: 265 Member
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    I think this is so much more than just a plateau. I feel so lost and on my own. I am frustrated for sure but I don't think it is all about the plateau. I have to start figuring out why I have been overweight my entire life. Sure, some of it may be genetics, some of it may be because I still eat most of the same foods I grew up on, some of it may be due to not having the best childhood. But, what exactly got me to where I am today? That is what I need to get at. I know I can't say it is because of others because I have been an adult for quite some time now and nobody forced me to eat what I have eaten. That's all on me. But the challenge for me now is to get to the root issue(s) so I can beat this once and for all.

    It's hard because I don't really know (or at least I think I don't) exactly what the issue is. Maybe I'm just afraid to face it. Nevertheless, it's time to go after it and conquer it, whatever it is because I am not giving up. I started this journey in November and I promised myself that I would not stop. I can't let myself down. I just have to take the road that is presented to me at this time and do whatever I need to do to get to the end of it and walk the next road, and so on. I will get through this, but it's going to take time.
  • jltheis7
    jltheis7 Posts: 496 Member
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    There are some really good books on overcoming food addiction that guide you through the self reflection of figuring out our relationship with food if you haven't looked at them. I had a great breakthrough with The Hunger Fix. I know each person's struggle is different so keep trying til you find what works for you.

    This week has been tough. I seem to have a good day followed by a poor day and then another good day. Talk about a rollercoaster.
  • HLaR79
    HLaR79 Posts: 1,519 Member
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    I type a reply, i send a reply, i loose a reply!

    Jltheis i hope your last week at school went well!
    I have done some infused water,strawberries, lemons that type of thing, i am starting to enjoy water but i just love that diet coke a bit too much!

    I think i hit a small plateau i have made no more progress since the start of May but have not gone the wrong way either! my body may need a new jump start!

    Bevkidd, the emotional reasons for the weight are sometimes much harder to address, i hope you find a good path!

    My week went well, we had a major critical incident at work this week which has made me so busy that all i could do at the end of the day was take care of my mental health, i didnt fail even in the struggle. I wasnt my best but i did good! Next week has to be a step up from this week!
  • FloraJL
    FloraJL Posts: 121 Member
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    I signed up for Beachbody on Demand last Thursday. So far, I've exercised every day! This morning I did Yoga Booty Ballet - Go-Go version. I was reminded of just how uncoordinated I am! But I did it the whole way through and I found the meditation portion very helpful.
  • HLaR79
    HLaR79 Posts: 1,519 Member
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    Beachbody on demand sounds interesting. I need to buy new shoes and make some motivation to exercise, i am so exhausted i cant imagine it but i know it will make me feel better! Gah
  • FloraJL
    FloraJL Posts: 121 Member
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    I haven't done BOD for for the last two days because the air conditioning has gone out in my house and it's 84 degrees indoors! It got fixed this morning so I'll get back to it tonight when I get home.

    @HLaR79, the Yoga Booty Ballet says you can do it with out without shoes and I've been doing it without; it's awesome!
  • jltheis7
    jltheis7 Posts: 496 Member
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    I prefer working out barefoot too; I know the experts say you need the support of shoes but it just seems better without.

    I made it to Curves today! I set a goal to get there twice this week so halfway there!

  • HLaR79
    HLaR79 Posts: 1,519 Member
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    I feel like the laziest person in the world, i once again have no energy to even get up and moving, im barely making it through my work day these days. Thank goodness my dr appt is coming up next week
  • sunflw95
    sunflw95 Posts: 8 Member
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    HLaR79 don't give up. Even doing just a little bit is better than nothing at all. That being said it is a good thing that you are going to see your Doc as something else might be going on to cause this fatigue. I hope all is well!
  • FloraJL
    FloraJL Posts: 121 Member
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    I did the Light & Easy version of Yoga Booty Ballet this morning. I had lots of reasons excuses to skip it, but I powered through! RAWR!
  • HLaR79
    HLaR79 Posts: 1,519 Member
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    Way to go FloraJL

    Thanks sunflw95, i did have a pity party but im not giving up

    i went out today and got some new shoes and although im working till 11 pm so i cant walk tonight i do plan to try doing some walking just around my neighbourhood, and my husband said he would buy me a fitbit! I put a app on my phone to try and track but when it's in my purse in a shopping cart it thinks im bike riding, and i cant carry my phone at work, so i miss so much of my day!



  • jltheis7
    jltheis7 Posts: 496 Member
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    Keeping track of your steps is a great motivator! Hope you get your fitbit.

    I have been indulging in afternoon naps as summer school is just 8-12. I totally think the Spanish siesta is a great idea...

  • carimiller7391
    carimiller7391 Posts: 1,091 Member
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    As some of you may know... I have a very hard time walking. I'm scheduled for major back surgery next Thursday 06.23. After surgery I have to walk a minimum of 1 mile per day after the first 2 weeks. Well I decided after making a new friend on my fitness pal to give walking a try last night. Just to see what I can do. I know it doesn't seem like much... but I did a half mile in 12 minutes before I couldn't bare the pain anymore. I'm so excited and darn proud of myself also. I feel so good right now. I'm working on mapping out my plan of attack on weight loss, exercise, and many more things.
  • jltheis7
    jltheis7 Posts: 496 Member
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    Carimiller, that's awesome! Hope your surgery goes well.
  • bevkidd1
    bevkidd1 Posts: 265 Member
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    Well, I have lost every week this month so far...here's to another loss this week. I am just going to keep doing what I've been doing all month long and I should see a loss this week as well. I am going to start walking again. Build back up to the 2 miles I was doing before. Battling my way back, I got this! :smile:
  • HLaR79
    HLaR79 Posts: 1,519 Member
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    Sorry for my absence everyone im here and holding on will post moreater tonight or tomorrow

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