Change is hard... but, I think I am having small successes. (long/whiny story inside :| )
mickigoad
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So, a little bit of back story... I spent the first half of the year following a very restrictive, team supervised keto program. I loved the ease and convenience. Not only did I lose the weight I was looking to lose, but I learned many things that I didn't know about the science, and results therein, of different foods on the body.
I also found out a lot about my relationship with food and how dependent my days were/are on emotions and food. I love carbs! I love them in most any form, but I really love carbs in bread, potatoes, pasta and rice. I love the comfort... the reminder of the love my mom showed our family by fixing carb loaded meals. (What did she know? She had self-control when it came to eating all those insulin-spiking foods... and she didn't stuff her feelings down by devouring a Super Burrito with Potato Ole's and a large Dr. Pepper.) I found that I can redirect the emotion to a different outlet and have success in dealing with them. I found a community of like-minded people who are all in different stages of this journey.
FastForward to today. For the past 6 weeks or so, I've been following a LCHF WOE on my own (with a bit guidance from the team that I was working with through the first half of the year). I've modified the food that I keep in the house (to the extent that the rest of my family is comfortable). I have found that I enjoy foods in their simplest forms... and I love to learn new ways to cook old favorites and to flavor things in ways that fit my WOE. I'm slowly learning my triggers, though now and again, one comes out of the blue and blindsides me.
The change was/is scary. It intimidated me to an extent I was not prepared for. To the point, I was feeling sorry for myself yesterday.
I DO want to say that while it wasn't the kind of day I hope to repeat any time soon, I feel like succeeded in a way that I didn't know I had in me. I didn't fill my face with those foods I would have turned to before on a day like yesterday.
Honestly, I think that is what I am struggling with is this: I was seeing such quick success the first part of this year. Then I decided to change my focus from the number on the scale to working more on a healthy body fat %. Things were progressing so quickly.. and then I started working out more (with a trainer, that I am sure is trying to kill me
) and the scale numbers have stopped getting smaller. I agreed to only do measurements once a month relating to the BF%.
So, I guess the conclusion here is I just needed to get this down on paper... and talk through the process with myself. Thank God for this new day... this new opportunity to make the day the best I know how.
If you are still with me... thank you!
It's so nice to have others alongside me who can relate to the struggles.
Micki
I also found out a lot about my relationship with food and how dependent my days were/are on emotions and food. I love carbs! I love them in most any form, but I really love carbs in bread, potatoes, pasta and rice. I love the comfort... the reminder of the love my mom showed our family by fixing carb loaded meals. (What did she know? She had self-control when it came to eating all those insulin-spiking foods... and she didn't stuff her feelings down by devouring a Super Burrito with Potato Ole's and a large Dr. Pepper.) I found that I can redirect the emotion to a different outlet and have success in dealing with them. I found a community of like-minded people who are all in different stages of this journey.
FastForward to today. For the past 6 weeks or so, I've been following a LCHF WOE on my own (with a bit guidance from the team that I was working with through the first half of the year). I've modified the food that I keep in the house (to the extent that the rest of my family is comfortable). I have found that I enjoy foods in their simplest forms... and I love to learn new ways to cook old favorites and to flavor things in ways that fit my WOE. I'm slowly learning my triggers, though now and again, one comes out of the blue and blindsides me.
The change was/is scary. It intimidated me to an extent I was not prepared for. To the point, I was feeling sorry for myself yesterday.
I DO want to say that while it wasn't the kind of day I hope to repeat any time soon, I feel like succeeded in a way that I didn't know I had in me. I didn't fill my face with those foods I would have turned to before on a day like yesterday.
Honestly, I think that is what I am struggling with is this: I was seeing such quick success the first part of this year. Then I decided to change my focus from the number on the scale to working more on a healthy body fat %. Things were progressing so quickly.. and then I started working out more (with a trainer, that I am sure is trying to kill me
) and the scale numbers have stopped getting smaller. I agreed to only do measurements once a month relating to the BF%.So, I guess the conclusion here is I just needed to get this down on paper... and talk through the process with myself. Thank God for this new day... this new opportunity to make the day the best I know how.
If you are still with me... thank you!
It's so nice to have others alongside me who can relate to the struggles. Micki11
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Amen, Sister to having others who can relate!2
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Sometimes we just need to write it out. I've done that many times and I gain insight into myself And reached solutions I wouldn't otherwise have come to.
Introspection is good stuff. Essential stuff, imo.3 -
I swear that sometimes I learn more when I have to take something and write it out or regurgitate it for someone else to understand. The number of times I've set out to journal for myself and found myself shocked that it helped others - or that I've set out to help someone else and learned a ton in the process, I've honestly lost count. This whole journey to being better versions of ourselves, in all the forms, that's what matters!3
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@mickigoad that is an awesome account of moving to a new WOE that is giving you awesome results.
My path started two years ago to manage my pain by what I did not eat to avoid starting on Enbrel injections. Leaving off sugar and all grains in my case have given me a new hope of staying mobile when in just 30 days my pain dropped from levels of 7-8 to 2-3. Losing 50 pounds, 40 years of life defining IBS, mental fog, etc, etc were some of the other side effects of my personal LCHF WOE.
After two years I am still learning and relearning (sad to say) how to eat for better health.
I was a vendor at a tradeshow this week. The luncheon meal was in no way LC friendly so I passed on most of it. Mid afternoon I ate two bite size bars of Hershey's dark chocolate since I was getting hungry. That was not too bad but then they came out with all the high end ice cream one wanted. I ate four HUGE scoops. That was over 48 hours ago and I have had several 'self' talks over these last two days. Triggers are real in my case. Next event I will carry my own lunch/dinner so I can keep my fingers off the triggers.
Welcome to MFP forums and thanks for sharing such an inspiring account.4 -
The only thing you can do is take one day at a time. And breathe, don't forget to breathe. For those days that come up like skunk perfumed puke, just remember these two mantras: One you can chant to youself, I'm a duck, I'm a duck, I'm a duck...or the old standby: This, too, shall pass. Either way, when whatever crisis is fading, only you remain. Stronger than ever.
Congratulations on making it through a tough day.4 -
Yup! Writing it all down and getting it all out is very uplifting! It's like a mental detox and it's good for the soul. Congrats on overcoming your bad day...which really was a good day because you came through it and it didn't win!!! 3
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The more different we are the more we are alike. Thanks for sharing your journey!3
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