Weigh-in Sep 19-25

wiredkell

Well, although I'm not weighing in today, I'll start this thread so it's here.
How was everyone's weekend?
I have been doing well with my working out and have started switching it up a bit so I'm not always doing the same thing. Don't want to plateau. So now, when I'm at work, I go to the gym at 4:30am until about 5:15-5:30 and I walk on the treadmill and or do the elliptical for a bit. Sometimes I do some weights. Then after supper, I usually do a bit more cardio on the treadmill and do weights or I do workout videos. Last night was a HIIT workout and stretching. One of my goals has always been to feel comfortable enough to wear a bikini and I've never managed to quite get there. With us going to Mexico at the end of January, that's a good goal for me. So I'm going to continue pushing and hopefully I'll get there.

SarahMaxx

Hi, ladies. Kelly, I'm glad you started the thread on a positive note, and I think the bikini goal is a good one (a tangible goal I can visualize seems to help me) and it's certainly doable at the point you are now. Just a few pounds a month will get you well into the 130s by the end of January.

I wish I were in better a spot today. Lois is calling herself Debbie Downer, and I think Winnie Whiner might describe me today. Every now and then I hit a depressed patch, and I hit one over the weekend. It wasn't as bad as it has been in the past, but it felt so familiar--and so uncomfortable.

I double booked myself on Friday night and ended up with no time for myself. I thought--okay, that's one day, and you have the weekend ahead where you don't have to sit at your desk. But then the weekend was weird. Hubby gets more paid time off than I do and is set to lose some if he doesn't take it by the end of the month. So this week he is going to visit a cousin who he was able to reconnect with last year when his brother died. He's excited about that and I'm happy for him, but he was focusing most of the weekend on getting things done for the trip. Normally, I would have spent time with neighbors at the pool, but the weather both days was less than inviting. It was gray and cloudy, but yet we didn't get rain that we needed. Instead it was dark and gloomy, but still very humid and hot. That really bummed me out because it was the next to last weekend before the pool closes for the season.

And for some unfathomable reason, I had low energy all weekend, made terrible food choices, couldn't get myself motivated to move hardly at all, and then as the weekend wound down, I felt bummed out about wasting weekend time and not sticking to my program! This is the worst I've done with intake and activity in I don't know when.

I don't know if it's a combination of some stress from family issues down south and this new employer jerking us all around, or if, for some reason, I just periodically hit the skids. My rationale mind tells me that I really should not feel so depressed/angry/tired/hungry--and yet, shaking the feelings is hard.

Last night, hubby asked me to go with him to pick up a few things at a department store that stays open late on Sunday nights, and we had dinner at a Mexican restaurant we like where we can sit out by a lake. You would think that would have made me feel better. There's a full harvest moon and by that time, there was a little breeze. But instead, I just felt bad that I couldn't feel good. Go figure! Don't know if any of you ladies can relate to this, but I hope that just by getting it down, it will help me get back in a better spot.

At least I did log all the food, even the Costco raisin oatmeal cookies that I so wish I didn't have to include, and so I know what I need to offset during the next few days. And the lack of activity when I was in pain didn't totally throw me off balance, so one sedentary weekend is not going to send me up to the next dress size, provided I don't let my self spiral down.

To avoid doing that, I'm committing to checking in here regularly, even though at times, I'm embarrassed to be the only person posting.

wiredkell

I can totally relate Sarah! I think everyone can. It's difficult when you get in a funk. It's difficult to be in and it's difficult to shake yourself out of it. But it's important not to be a Debbie Downer or Winnie Whiner for too long, as it's only doing disservice to yourself. Eventually it starts affecting everything in your life. When I get like that, I try post on here, read fitness motivational quotes and basically just try get started again on being positive and realizing that when I do workout and eat better.. I feel better all around! I hope you can shake it.

Lastchancelj

FYI - I AM NOT ENCOURAGING ANYONE TO USE A NEGATIVE NAME. Sarah - STOP! I must as well. I was simply putting how I was feeling and emphasizing how terrible I was feeling but , definitely NOT encouraging assigning ourselves names such as these! Seeing Sara post the other name just really jolted me and since I am the one who started it - I am ENDING IT NOW!!! I was refraining from posting BECAUSE I didn't have much positive to say and DID NOT WANT TO BRING THE GROUP DOWN or have everyone feeling sorry for me. Not what I need and I'm sure it's not what you all need. So it ends now.

Life contains many stresses - work, money, vacations or lack thereof, spouses, kids, parents, partners, friends. Stress is EVERYWHERE. It's how we approach it and handle it that makes a difference. I will admit that I've been wallowing in my own self pity and that needs to end as well.

This past week I was hit with a vertigo situation Thurs & Fri that was absolutely horrible. I was able to meet with my therapist late Friday and had to take it easy on Saturday, and it showed on my steps. But, I am feeling much better and need to focus on setting myself up to succeed at hitting my own daily goal - be it 4k or 12k steps per day. I need to focus on improving my intake to stay on my plan.

So - how am I going to do that???? I make commitments at work and to others that I succeed at completing on a daily, hourly and very regular basis. It is rare that I miss a commitment to others - I mean EXTREMELY rare. So why can't I keep my own commitments to me for me? That is going to change.

Positive thoughts and positive actions only!

Meal prep was done yesterday and I have my lunch here. I still ate out and the reason I did that is not acceptable...I should have cut up my chicken and taken it on the road and ate it on my way to my appointment. After all, that's what I did with my Starbucks protein bistro box! And I would have been more satisfied. I told myself I didn't have time, yet I MADE time to swing into the drive thru at Starbucks when I saw no one else there! It's these little things that are killing me. And I need to change it...And I am going to.

Tomorrow, I will only eat the food I have prepared and brought with me. Right now, I am logging off to go to the restroom to change into my workout clothes to make TRX class in an hour. I am committing to myself!

Please - Commit to yourself to succeed in whatever your goals may be!!!

Kelly - you could pull off a bikin right now!! But I love your goal!

wiredkell

Great post Lois! Getting rid of the negative and only allowing the positive, is definitely the way to go.

My goal at the moment is to achieve my 5 miles of steps per day. I changed it awhile ago from number of steps to 5 miles in order to try make the 2016 goal for the year. Some days are much harder than others and some days I can manage to do extra at the gym and some days I can't, but I push through. This morning was extremely hard for me to wake up at 4:30, go to the gym and then to stay at the gym, but I managed to stay on the treadmill for my half hour and that's all that matters. I'm heading home today! Can't wait to see my family.

Lois - I'm sure I probably could. Lots of people say that. It's just that I myself am not comfortable yet. I never wear clothing that I'm not comfortable in, so I can't push myself to wear a bathing suit I'm not comfortable in. Mostly it's my stomach... but it'll get there eventually.

SarahMaxx

Lois, you didn't cause me to use the name. I personalize moods that way sometimes because seeing my frame of mind in character is something that helps me lighten up.

I agree that we need to focus on the positive, but also feel that it's important to express the negative sometimes because, for me, it takes the power out of it. When I put things down in words, it helps me gain perspective. It also helps me when other people say, "Yeah, I know how that feels," or "When I get in that spot, this helps _________."

So I can't promise that I'll always say only positive things, but I'll try my best not to stay in the negative for too long.

My goal for the moment is to log intake very carefully and try to get the macronutrients in better shape. Even when I have a good deficit, my sugar and fat intake is still out range, and I think that's key for my getting things moving in the desired direction again.

Have a safe trip home, Kelly. And Sheesh, if you're checking in, have a safe flight to Hawaii.

SarahMaxx

It's after midnight. Where does a day go? I'm finally logging in to put in dinner and to see how much damage I did with the spumoni tonight. Ran out for a haircut after work and as I drove away, I noticed that the check engine light was on. Hubby is visiting a cousin and has the newer car, so I'm stuck with "Chuck," our older vehicle for the next few days. I decided to come straight home instead of going to the mall since I had also dashed out and left my cell phone on my desk and I didn't want to risk getting stuck somewhere after dark without a phone. And when I got in, that ice cream was there in the freezer. I did manage to spend about 40 minutes on the treadmill and was within my calorie allotment for the day, but I didn't get enough protein, and of course, sugar was in the red.

I have a friend who once said that when his fitbit goes to midnight, he looks at it as a clean slate. What he did the day before is done--good or bad--and now he has an opportunity for a new day. I think of him and that statement every time I catch my fitbit turning over to a new day, which I did 20 minutes ago. Hope this day (Wednesday) will be a good one for us all.

SarahMaxx

WBL: 140.0
LW: 141.0
TW: 140.6

Forgot to weigh first thing this morning, but my mid-morning weight is usually not far off. My goal for today--and perhaps I should just look at this one day at a time, ala my friend and his fitbit philosophy--is to keep sugar and fat BOTH within the desired allotment. Oh man. It's easier said than done.