My trigger food introduction.... This is me....

EmilyW37

On the whole my trigger food is food! It seems as if the minute I eat something, I just want to munch. So I always try to have a late lunch! Normally I can control it. But sometimes, usually when I am at work I just want to eat and eat!!! Well, this last weekend I was disgusting and greedy. Like a disgusting beast!!! I seem to have got myself into a cycle of when I am working nights I see it as a reason for all good sense to go out of the window! In my head I justify eating crap because 'it sucks I am on nights' My nights are 12 and half hours long! Actually all my shifts are! Its really got out of control, well this last weekend it certainly did! Slices and slices of toast and jam, chocolate bars from the vending machine, cheese sandwiches. I wasn't hungry but seemed to be on a total self destruct mission!

In my head I was saying stop, you're full, you're not hungry, you will hate yourself. But still I couldn't stop! The weird thing is I still tracked everything!!!!

I spent all of Monday crying! Totally beating myself up and with terrible stomach cramps. I don't normally eat bread!!! I weighed myself Wednesday (this is my normal weigh day) at it had me as 13lb heavier than last week!!!!

So there we are! I am on nights again this coming weekend, but I am feeling a bit more positive! I had a good chat, with tears, with my boyfriend on Monday night, and so fingers crossed.... If its not in my packed lunch, its not going in my belly!!!!! And that is what I have to tell myself!!!!

So there we are! This is me.... Fingers crossed that there really is no judging in this group??

kjoy_

I know it's upsetting to have a bad binge. that's why i vowed that my last binge i had two mondays ago would be my last ever. it's not worth it to give yourself anxiety and bring on the self-deprecating feelings.

i'm starting with removing all the trigger foods in my house, much to the chagrin of my boyfriend. jars of peanut butter, boxes of cereal, frozen pizzas, ranch dressing, snack packs and crackers...all gone until i am sure that i can control myself. now i don't know if you have the ability to do that in your house, but it's really helped me. i was usually reaching for the handfuls of snacks just because they were THERE, even if i was in the middle of cooking a healthy dinner.

work is tough because everyone is always bringing in some sort of treat. I actually don't even do well with keeping healthy snacks at my desk, because i overeat them. i've been chewing gum as of late and it seems to help. if i bring a snack, i have to bring only one portion and i spread it out throughout the day.

i just tell myself that the time will pass whether i'm eating healthily or not. when i look back on myself in 6 months, would i rather be at my goal or be back where i started again? binges are instant gratification, and sometimes we need to look deeper into the underlying cause of stressful snacking before the cravings to binge will ever leave us.

someone once told me that it takes an average of 63 days to break a bad habit. i am planning on extending that to 90 days without trigger foods or snacks in my house before i reintroduce them. i need to improve my relationship with these foods before i know i can enjoy them like a moderate, rational person