Family ties and tears

no6016

Whoa. Doing well with food (well way better than I would have here with family). But lots of emotions. My mom is complicated, puts us all on edge. Friday was ok and my son looked great. Friday night he slept terribly and that threw off his fragile system (he has stomach issues). That derailed us all and things got slightly heated but in the long run these things with the boy serve us to help and understand him.

This made us late for party setup and distracted, and my mom the hostess was ooo weee a piece of work. Tense all around. I got completely off in my head as it seemed like my brother in law wouldn't talk to me. I can only handle one person in the world at a time shunning me--and my father as I explained is that person now. (He and my mom are split so he wasn't at this party). So here I was with all my real family and my bro in law would not engage.

I am not eating enough junk anymore to mask my emotions. Really! By the end of the night when hubby and I got back to the hotel I just had a fat cry. Like what little kids do, the corners of their mouth won't come up. It's ridiculous, but real.