BED for over 5 years...
eleonora1809
Posts: 85 Member
Hello everyone,
First off, I’m glad this community exists.
I’ve been suffering from binge eating/compulsive eating disorder for over 5 years. 80% of the time after I binged, I always forced the food out in a very unhealthy way.
2 years ago, I noticed I usually binged when I’m stressed out. I binged when I was doing my thesis, I binged when I fought with my family, I binged when my boss told me I’m incompetent, etc.
Last year, I only binged once or twice and it felt like an accomplishment. I thought I’d never binge and purge again. I’m finally fixed. But I was wrong.
I lost 10 pounds for my sister wedding on January 2018 by cutting lunch out of my diet. Basically I starved myself. But after the event ends, I’ve been eating out of control and gained all the weight back with some extra pounds. I’m so bummed and hopeless.
This past few months, I’ve been binging non stop. I could eat all the junk food until my brain feels numb, and the next day I’d eat nothing at all. It’s just a non stop cycle. I’m scared, I don’t want to be stuck with this nightmare for the rest of my life.
Please help.
Thankyou.
(Ps I’m sorry if I have any grammar mistakes since english is not my native language)
First off, I’m glad this community exists.
I’ve been suffering from binge eating/compulsive eating disorder for over 5 years. 80% of the time after I binged, I always forced the food out in a very unhealthy way.
2 years ago, I noticed I usually binged when I’m stressed out. I binged when I was doing my thesis, I binged when I fought with my family, I binged when my boss told me I’m incompetent, etc.
Last year, I only binged once or twice and it felt like an accomplishment. I thought I’d never binge and purge again. I’m finally fixed. But I was wrong.
I lost 10 pounds for my sister wedding on January 2018 by cutting lunch out of my diet. Basically I starved myself. But after the event ends, I’ve been eating out of control and gained all the weight back with some extra pounds. I’m so bummed and hopeless.
This past few months, I’ve been binging non stop. I could eat all the junk food until my brain feels numb, and the next day I’d eat nothing at all. It’s just a non stop cycle. I’m scared, I don’t want to be stuck with this nightmare for the rest of my life.
Please help.
Thankyou.
(Ps I’m sorry if I have any grammar mistakes since english is not my native language)
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The only thing I can suggest is to start getting rid of the guilt. If you binge, accept that your body had an emotional need of some kind, and that now you need to accept this. Do NOT punish yourself. You may regain for a short time, but getting rid of the guilt is one of the only things that contributed to helping me. At all...
All the hugs for your struggles, @eleonora18092 -
I have to agree with @KnitOrMiss. I always find that negative feelings lead to binging, so negative feelings about binging just lead to more and more binging.
I have found the most success when I don't look at a binge as a failure. Maybe a bit of a misstep, but that is OK. It's hard, you might not be perfect, and all of that is just fine.3
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