Why am I thinking like this?

SoLiveItUp

I rejoined this group as I feel I'm on the verge of the binge. It's nearly time for bed so I'm not worrying about food because I'm going to sleep so won't be thinking about it but in my head I have this excitement that I can eat again and how I'm going to eat so many cookies, chocolate for breakfast. I've done this many times and have to pay for it for the rest of the day with light eating and exercise. Its as if I enjoy the sense of eating large volumes. I enjoy that moment when I've eaten the entire container of cookies or the whole box of grapes, whole bar of chocolate. Why though. Why can't I eat in moderation instead of having to be fully sick of the food before I stop and that takes quite a bit of food.

volume77

for me it helps to fill up on lots of water and then really filling foods like steamed veggies, oatmeal, salad, low cal soup, shiratake noodles, almond milk, lately ive been chugging a lot of water and that has helped. but seriously some nights ill eat like four of those steams in the bag veggies. it helps if im filling up on that stuff its a lot easier to stay under calories than cookies or chips etc. i could literally eat a whole box of honey nut cheerios and never feel full.