Hi, I am new to all of this. and finding it very very hard to do.
Dwade0981
Posts: 13 Member
I am a 40 yr old guy in Texas weighing currently 519 lbs.
I just got a food scale and some measuring spoons/cups and been weighing my food and just keeping track on the stuff I eat/drink through the day. finding it very difficult at times and realizing that I am going way over my sodium intake per day mostly because everything I eat is processed or prepackaged and just microwaveable and I can't control the foods being bought or cooked. but I am trying to control the portions.
I have been obese since I was a child started gaining around 10 yrs old and was very highly active, running and playing outside riding my cousins bike because her banana seat was more comfy than the V shaped seat on the boys bikes.
I ate healthy as a kid, never was allowed candy never had pizza or fast food growing up, but still the weight kept piling on. by 18, I was homeless and suffered homelessness for 10 years and by that time I was over 400 lbs and no matter what I did I couldnt lose weight.
As of today I am on thyroid pills, testosterone meds because both of those levels are very low. and still it doesn't really help now that they are all semi balanced out. My dr gave me the phentermine pills for about 3 months at a whopping 60 dollars bc my insurance won't cover it. and while taking them it lowered my hunger by 90% to the point I would take one or two bites and so full. I barely lost weight though, about 10 lbs in that entire 3 months. but I just can't afford those 60 dollar payments.
I been denied over 15 times for WLS my insurance saying I don't meet their standards. no gout, no diabetes and no sleep apnea. my weight alone isn't an indicator for the WLS criteria they said.
I have been battling deep deep dark depression the past 5 years because of how I been treated by women in the dating scene. rejected horribly, made fun of, mocked at, laughed at, humiliated, told I am disgusting, worthless, useless, told no woman would want me, told I shouldn't even dare try to be dating because of my weight even down to having a few women tell me I needed to kill myself just because of it.
So it sent me into a deep deep dark depression, I am going on the 12th to try to get enrolled to see a psychiatrist and try to get my mind right. all the while trying to now take control of my food intake and focus on my weight.
Just thought I would do a introductory and a little info about me.
I just got a food scale and some measuring spoons/cups and been weighing my food and just keeping track on the stuff I eat/drink through the day. finding it very difficult at times and realizing that I am going way over my sodium intake per day mostly because everything I eat is processed or prepackaged and just microwaveable and I can't control the foods being bought or cooked. but I am trying to control the portions.
I have been obese since I was a child started gaining around 10 yrs old and was very highly active, running and playing outside riding my cousins bike because her banana seat was more comfy than the V shaped seat on the boys bikes.
I ate healthy as a kid, never was allowed candy never had pizza or fast food growing up, but still the weight kept piling on. by 18, I was homeless and suffered homelessness for 10 years and by that time I was over 400 lbs and no matter what I did I couldnt lose weight.
As of today I am on thyroid pills, testosterone meds because both of those levels are very low. and still it doesn't really help now that they are all semi balanced out. My dr gave me the phentermine pills for about 3 months at a whopping 60 dollars bc my insurance won't cover it. and while taking them it lowered my hunger by 90% to the point I would take one or two bites and so full. I barely lost weight though, about 10 lbs in that entire 3 months. but I just can't afford those 60 dollar payments.
I been denied over 15 times for WLS my insurance saying I don't meet their standards. no gout, no diabetes and no sleep apnea. my weight alone isn't an indicator for the WLS criteria they said.
I have been battling deep deep dark depression the past 5 years because of how I been treated by women in the dating scene. rejected horribly, made fun of, mocked at, laughed at, humiliated, told I am disgusting, worthless, useless, told no woman would want me, told I shouldn't even dare try to be dating because of my weight even down to having a few women tell me I needed to kill myself just because of it.
So it sent me into a deep deep dark depression, I am going on the 12th to try to get enrolled to see a psychiatrist and try to get my mind right. all the while trying to now take control of my food intake and focus on my weight.
Just thought I would do a introductory and a little info about me.
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@Dwade0981 kudos to you for putting yourself first & moving towards taking control of your future. You have overcome some difficult times & feedback. At the end of the day, I find that weight loss starts & ends with myself. Above all else, I must be my #1 reason for why I'm doing this & I have to be responsible for actions / plan.
I'm not sure if it is an option moving forward for you, but I always keep the microwave streamable frozen veg on hand when I'm in a rush or haven't gotten to the store.
Do you have an air fryer or George Foreman? I like raw frozen chicken breast with Montreal steak seasoning. As they 10-15% salt water added they don't seem to dry out.
Please let us know if there are any ways or questions so we can support you moving forward!2 -
Is there a reason you need to control your sodium intake? Just because it is a column on MFP doesn't mean it is necessary goal for health or weight loss.
I am glad you are seeking help because weight loss is more about physical health not mental health. Of course the two are intertwined and losing weight may lessen your depression and improve body image but the chances are not good that it will be enough to resolve them entirely. I think it is important to be as positive as possible while also having a proper road map to overall health improvement.
There is really no way to explain the cruelty. It is an act of immaturity and/or a complete lack of compassion for a fellow human being. Even if your weight caught them by surprise there is no valid excuse. I know that it is easier said sometimes than done but you should never allow someone that is cruel to have any power over you. Their opinions are worthless.
You belong here. Also, you can absolutely lose a life changing amount of weight. The first two core concepts to adopt are:
1) Keep it as simple and easy as you can
2) Be extra kind to yourself as you proceed
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I'm not good at pep talks but I'm glad you here and that you found this group.
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