Day 55 - Week 8 of reset - I AM NOT LONGER AFRAID!
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sassiebritches
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YUP!! Here I am, Day 55, Week 8 of EM2WL, I have felt all the feelings you can imagine a newbie would feel. And I am convinced...I do not intend to write a stinkin book every time I post in here, but feel like there are some that might benefit from my journey. I have learned some valuable lessons here that I think could help.
You all may remember my "FREAK OUT" at the grocery store on my first week. Where I was just coming off of 8 months of VERY Low Carbs - I cried in the isle shaking unable to purchase anything cause I was so afraid of too much sugar/carbs - I wanted OJ so bad that day....I didn't buy it, now that I know I can have it I just don't want it - and I am not afraid to put the whole wheat in the cart and I eat what I want, in moderation (Eating is not an excuse for gluttony - this still is true). Who remembers my "How will I know when it is time to cut" at week 3-4? Yup, I now know what you meant by "You will know" I am still in reset and enjoying it while I can, not quite ready for the cut
Oh and don't forget "I AM FREAKING OUT!!!! I AM SOOOOOO BLOATED" resulting in not fitting in a thing I own, that passes :P and it comes back and it passes, just my body working things out I just bought larger pants to get me by How about - "I don't have any weights can I use Milk Jugs filled with water"? Yup you sure can, I have been doing it for 8 weeks and now I know it works - a friends told me last week "Hey your arms are getting cut!!!" so where there is a will there is a way - Milk Jug workouts (ask me about em). Oh and who can forget the "I GAINED 4 LBS WHILE OUTA TOWN". Well guess what I did and it never came off, and I went away for work again this month and guess what? I gained another 4 lbs - which I hate, BUT NOW KNOW - I must eat all day when away, dipping below BMR will most assuredly make you gain weight. Both trips I did not eat my usual every 2 hours - I ate breakfast, 1 snack and a huge dinner and BLAM gain.....so EATING THE FOOD THROUGHOUT THE DAY IS ESSENTIAL IN STABILIZING. This proved to me that I am in fact stabilizing, though I gain when I go out of town, I DO NOT gain more when I return home, I then stabilize at THAT weight (which I loathe and cannot - though I have to -wait to go away) I have learned so much about myself the last 8 weeks. That I am just as Bad *kitten* as the body builder in the healthfood store, who knows my fight.....she is fighting it too. I still struggle with the body image, and it is still hard to explain to people what I am doing (EVERYONE wants to tell me what to do to lose the weight) no-one can fathom that I would wanna stay this weight....and why am I eating like the rest of the world when I am so big? I love being able to say at 250 lbs - I Lift!!!!! (Not heavy yet - gotta save for that home gym) - I can drop and give you 20.....no problem (not true 9 weeks ago), I can mix a protein shake like no other.....I have 4 weeks to master eating like a human, moving like a beast.......If you have doubts, you are not alone, I have them....I just lift them out.....this will work, just trust the process........EM2LW!
To be continued........
You all may remember my "FREAK OUT" at the grocery store on my first week. Where I was just coming off of 8 months of VERY Low Carbs - I cried in the isle shaking unable to purchase anything cause I was so afraid of too much sugar/carbs - I wanted OJ so bad that day....I didn't buy it, now that I know I can have it I just don't want it - and I am not afraid to put the whole wheat in the cart and I eat what I want, in moderation (Eating is not an excuse for gluttony - this still is true). Who remembers my "How will I know when it is time to cut" at week 3-4? Yup, I now know what you meant by "You will know" I am still in reset and enjoying it while I can, not quite ready for the cut
Oh and don't forget "I AM FREAKING OUT!!!! I AM SOOOOOO BLOATED" resulting in not fitting in a thing I own, that passes :P and it comes back and it passes, just my body working things out I just bought larger pants to get me by How about - "I don't have any weights can I use Milk Jugs filled with water"? Yup you sure can, I have been doing it for 8 weeks and now I know it works - a friends told me last week "Hey your arms are getting cut!!!" so where there is a will there is a way - Milk Jug workouts (ask me about em). Oh and who can forget the "I GAINED 4 LBS WHILE OUTA TOWN". Well guess what I did and it never came off, and I went away for work again this month and guess what? I gained another 4 lbs - which I hate, BUT NOW KNOW - I must eat all day when away, dipping below BMR will most assuredly make you gain weight. Both trips I did not eat my usual every 2 hours - I ate breakfast, 1 snack and a huge dinner and BLAM gain.....so EATING THE FOOD THROUGHOUT THE DAY IS ESSENTIAL IN STABILIZING. This proved to me that I am in fact stabilizing, though I gain when I go out of town, I DO NOT gain more when I return home, I then stabilize at THAT weight (which I loathe and cannot - though I have to -wait to go away) I have learned so much about myself the last 8 weeks. That I am just as Bad *kitten* as the body builder in the healthfood store, who knows my fight.....she is fighting it too. I still struggle with the body image, and it is still hard to explain to people what I am doing (EVERYONE wants to tell me what to do to lose the weight) no-one can fathom that I would wanna stay this weight....and why am I eating like the rest of the world when I am so big? I love being able to say at 250 lbs - I Lift!!!!! (Not heavy yet - gotta save for that home gym) - I can drop and give you 20.....no problem (not true 9 weeks ago), I can mix a protein shake like no other.....I have 4 weeks to master eating like a human, moving like a beast.......If you have doubts, you are not alone, I have them....I just lift them out.....this will work, just trust the process........EM2LW!To be continued........
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It is so great to hear that you are mentally, emotionally and physically in a great place!! I have enjoyed sharing your journey - the freaking out and all!
It is one thing to hear "trust the process" and another thing entirely to believe that the process should be trusted. Awaiting your next chapter . . . :happy:0 -
It's wonderful to hear from people who are further along in the process. I am just 2.5 weeks into it and I have doubts all the time, but I'm determined to stick with it. I look forward to the day when I can say that I'm no longer afraid.
Congratulations and thank you!0 -
It's wonderful to hear from people who are further along in the process. I am just 2.5 weeks into it and I have doubts all the time, but I'm determined to stick with it. I look forward to the day when I can say that I'm no longer afraid.
Congratulations and thank you!
It can be freaky....hang in there!!!!!0 -
It is so great to hear that you are mentally, emotionally and physically in a great place!! I have enjoyed sharing your journey - the freaking out and all!
It is one thing to hear "trust the process" and another thing entirely to believe that the process should be trusted. Awaiting your next chapter . . . :happy:
:ohwell: :frown: 
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My freak out sessions ..... LOL0 -
Can't wait to watch your progress. I'm just 2.5/3 weeks in & have felt many of these feelings!0
