Kind of funny, but not really...

lahkeishamarrie

I'm just recently beginning to understand that I am a binge eater. I used to say things like "I normally don't eat a whole lot. In fact a lot of days I only eat once or twice. But a few times a week, I just really like the taste of a lot of different flavors at once!" I said that to explain why I was stopping at Wawa for a hoagie, McDonald's for a burger, nuggets and fries, and taco bell for a couple tacos, on the way home...alone. I also found myself saying those things when I'd order takeout with friends, and instead of ordering just one meal, I'd order two entrees, several appetizers, a desert, and a large drink. Or using those words to justify ordering an entire pizza, a couple entrees, and several appetizers for a Saturday in, watching movies alone. And as my weight crept up over the years, eventually reaching over 200 lbs on my 5'2" frame, I believed myself. I wondered why I was gaining weight when I didn't overindulge with every meal. I really would skip meals most days! Normally out of guilt and in an attempt to make up for a binge. Back when I first started to binge eat, I recognized it as an issue. But my boss, who was about 300+ lbs at the time, saw me at an athletic 125 lbs and said "NO WAY!" She discouraged me from reaching out for help because of how it would make people "with real eating disorders" feel. I wish I never listened to her. I wish I acknowledged that little voice inside of me when I saw my eating getting out of hand. But I didn't. And I'm over 75 lbs heavier as a result of it.

I don't feel bad for myself, though. I've acknowledged that my binge eating IS an issue and have resolved to change it. But I still chuckle every time I think of the excuse that I gave to others when my eating habits were questioned. "...just like the taste of a lot of different flavors at once!" LOL :laugh: SMDH I've gotta be some kinda special to think that one up! LOL

Friends, my name is Keisha and I wish you all the best on your weight loss journeys! If I can ever be of assistance in any way, please feel free to reach out! And don't forget to laugh at yourself from time to time!! ;-) You deserve the smile! And as hard as this stuff is, we certainly need it!

abelle2

Hi Keisha! You have a great attitude, and that's going to take you a long way; in this journey and in life. Cheers and good luck to you. Feel free to friend me if you want a binge buddy who's trying to accomplish the same goals as you. I'm only on week 2 of winning the battle of the binge, but I already feel so much better.