Loosing steam!

Dwamma

OH my goodness I was doing to good. Eating right, lifting weights, doing cardio in-between! I was looking good and felt great. Then I got stuck and was not loosing weight. You know the up 1lb down 2lb up 3lbs down 2lbs roller coaster! I changed jobs (August) about a month into this night mare of a roller coaster. So then I stopped working out because I went from 20 hour a week to 40 and I was beat after work every day..and all did on weekends was sleep and homework, and classroom prep work. I totally lost my motivation. Then came the "mindless eating" again. I have found my self putting things in my mouth with out realizing it all over again. That was how I got to 210lbs and extremely unhealthy! But I don't even catch my self until it is to late! Why have I fallen pray to this unhealthy habit again?? How do I over come it again! I am still on the roller coaster ride of up 1lb down 2lbs up 3lbs. so at least the unhealthy eating has not yet got me gaining. But my waist has gotten a lot bigger! So I look and feel fatter. Then again i am sure that I am loosing muscle and gaining fat! UGH!! I hate the thought of that. It makes me mad.....but it doesn't motivate me? WHY!! I know the dental challenges I have had don't help. I have been kind of depressed I guess due to always being in pain, no mater what I take and what I do my face hurts. I can't over come a sinus infection due to my dental infections. And I can't get my tooth pulled until Dec 20...oh and we are having our Christmas dinner on the 22nd! UGH! So there I go again cooking up a storm for a bunch of ungrateful people! Just as it was for Thanksgiving! I know that is part of it, I live in a house filled with people who just expect me to handle everything and do everything for them and have no respect for me, for how I feel, or what my needs are, most of the time they don't even say "thank you" for all of my heard work. So I know that is affecting me as well. But I have to focus on myself again, but I just don't really care any more. WHY??? I really don't feel healthy any more! I feel fat and I am finding it hard to move again. My shirts are starting to fit tighter and tighter.....and I don't have any larger sizes any more. I know I am getting thicker and thicker and I know i don't like it and it doesn't feel good to me either. But I can't seem to get motivated to do anything about it.
Someone please kick me in the but and help me change my thinking! I have to over come this.....but how!
I use to be thrilled to go and work out even when my hubby was furious with me for never being home and always being gone, now all I want to do is stay at home. I don't even want to work out at home any more. Where is the motivation that I had before?? Is this the "last 10lb slump" that I have heard people talking about??? If so how do people get over it and move on and stay healthy??
Thank for letting me vent.....now maybe I can move forward and get out of this rut! Any suggestions or kicks in the butt are always welcome! Thanks!

DawnEH612

How did things turn out for you? I'm in this situation now.