Need help and support to lose nearly 80lbs

prettyinpink86_123

Hi there my name is Laura I'm 27 years old and live in Bradford England with my husband of 5 years. I suffer from depression anxiety and panic attacks and my binge eating got out of control last year when I suffered 3 miscarriages in one year. Twins at 10 and 13 weeks. And then again in the November. It turned my whole world upside down because I am desperate for a baby and to feel like a proper family. I turned to food for comfort and now I cant stop. I feel that guilty about what I eat that I hide food from my husband and skip meals when I have eaten something bad. No I don't know what to do. I started to do better. then it comes to this time of the year when we was pregnant and I cant cope, went back to the doctors and got signed off work I feel useless and horrible. then my sister is getting married next may I was supposed to be maid of honour which I was looking foreword to then my sister brought a dress without me trying it on and it was too small when I told her she called me fat and now we have fallen out and I am not attending the wedding.

I feel so much pressure and since then I have been eating lots of crap drinking fizzy drinks eating take out and put 3lbs on. I have my dairy as private and although I don't go over on my calories what I eat is so not good for me. My husband works nights so I spend a lot of time on my own. I feel helpless. I am in desperate need of help. Help to lose weight and help to stop using food as a crutch. I am currently on a waiting list to see a counsellor, I need to start my journey now as I don't know how long I will be waiting. 2013 has been such a waste I have spent so much of it sad depressed and crying. I need 2014 to be my year, my year to be happy my year to be healthy and more importantly my year to have a baby.

Please help me on my journey your help and support would be so much appreciated.

Thank you Laura xxx

runningcat76

Hi

I am so sorry to hear about all you have been through. It all sounds truly awful and I cannot imagine how you must feel. You are definitely doing the right thing seeing a counseller. I hope you get to see one soon as I think it will really help you. I hope you can get support via your GP too.
There are lots of folk here who totally understand the daily battle with food and that horrible binge cycle its so hard to break out of. You are not alone.

Take care and just take one day at a time.

BlackPup

I'm really sorry for your loss. I really hope this is the year for you.
You can do this. I put on 9 kg in a few months through losing control of my binging. I've changed to diet soft drinks and healthy foods and I'm feeling much more in control. I plan all my meals before I get up in the morning then adjust as need be. Hope this helps.

Samphires

Laura, I can only imagine how difficult that must have been having 3 miscarriages. However, I do know how difficult it is to lose weight when you suffer from anxiety and depression, but you - we - can do this. I'm just starting on my weight loss journey - I've lost and gained weight repetitively for the last 6 years, and I most recently, I gained 6 stone in 18 months due to my out of control binging.

Counselling on the NHS (if thats the route you've gone down) can take months and months, so you were wise to turn to a less formal method of support. Things may seem awful and completely unmanagable now, but gaining control of your eating will help you gain control of the way you feel and will change your outlook on life. Just take it on small step at a time, little changes here and there, and you'll soon see the difference it makes.

We're all here for you. If you need to talk to anyone about anything at all, feel free to message me

Sophie xx

fiercekindness

I am very sorry for your losses Laura. I hope you continue to hang in there. And I'd love to be apart of anyone's journey, because isn't it so much easier when we have friends to lean on for support. I know for me, it seems like that would help me. Prehaps break the isolation and shame that I feel daily with struggling with eating so much.

heatherhowell12

Laura,
I also at times feel helpless and that eating is the only way to make me feel better (momentarily). Although my weight loss has not been great, I started working out after work or whenever I'm feeling depressed at a local gym (or even a hoola hoop in my living room). For some reason working out once a day, even for 30 minutes, makes me sleep better and makes me feel so much better about myself. Also, when I binge eat I'm trying as hard as possible to binge eat with apples with just a little bit of Peanut Butter, which is much more healthier then binging on the potato chips, pizza, and anything in my fridge that I can get my hands on. I'm sorry to hear of your struggles and hopefully this little piece of advice helps you. Remember that no matter what size you are, you are beautiful.

Pudding1980

Big hugs to you. It definitely sounds like you are having a very tough go of things. I am so very sorry for your losses. I hope this is your year to get everything you want