Support Please

TIUClare
TIUClare Posts: 62 Member
Hi all,
I'm really struggling at the moment curbing the urge to binge, which is why I am writing in here. I have PCOS and clearly a very strange relationship with food. When I was younger, I had some anorexia tendencies that then turned into bulimic tendencies. My boyfriend at the time found out about this and I then I stopped. The thing was, I stopped the purging, but I didn't stop the bingeing. Now I am 31 years old and I am struggling to get through a single day without bingeing or sabotaging my nutrition.
I am following the Tone It Up Nutrition Plan and I need to lose at least 50lbs by November 25th. As I mentioned above, I have polycystic ovarian syndrome and my endocrinologist has set me this weight loss challenge.
I just need to stop bingeing because I am destroying my hard work. Does anyone have any tips? Yesterday, I was so good until mid afternoon, then binge-mania set in and I had about treble the number of calories I was supposed to have had. I don't want to be triggering but I really need some support to get through this.
Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to get this off my chest!
Clare

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  • Moxie42
    Moxie42 Posts: 1,400 Member
    That all sounds very familiar!!!! When I was in high school, I binged...but I made up for it easily with insane amounts of exercise and extreme food restriction. But for the past 10 years or so (I'll be 31 next month), I've continued to binge but without "making up for it" and I've gained 70 lbs over that time. For 4-5 years, I thought what I was doing was okay because "it worked"- I never gained. But as we both know, that's not healthy. Binging isn't healthy, and neither is purging/starving.

    I wish I had a solution but I'm still working on it too. I just keep telling myself this quote I saw on Pinterest- "Losing weight is hard. Being overweight is hard. Choose your hard." If it's hard either way, why not go for the "hard" that is a positive thing? Maybe join a challenge or group that includes weekly weigh-ins or daily check-ins where you can note the "wins" and "losses" of the day. For me, I go to Curves and I'm trying to use that to keep me accountable.

    It's hard when our histories include anorexia/buliamia tendencies, because it's sooooo hard to lose weight the healthy way when we only know otherwise. Just know you're not alone in this. Maybe even ask for success stories- here or on the Successes forum, etc. I think the thing that helps me most is seeing people in similar situations or with similar goals who have succeeded. It reminds me that yes, it IS possible to overcome my issues, and it IS possible to lose weight healthily!
  • hazy521
    hazy521 Posts: 2
    I have just recently admitted to myself that I have an issue with binge eating. I don't have an issue with purging - mostly because I have not been successful with it and not for lack of trying. Even writing that now makes me feel ashamed because a small part of me is disappointed I was unable to.
    I think my problem first started after I first got 'healthy' for my marriage. I put that in quotations because it is more that I got skinny - I didn't get healthy. I starved myself to the point where one day I just could take it anymore... and ended up eating a family size jar of peanut butter with about two dozen cookies. I have been struggling with binge eating since - which is approximately 3 years ago.
    My one suggestion would be to be reasonable, and make progress slowly but steadily.
    Besides finally admitting I had a problem - I was trying to do too much too quickly; 500 calories a day and 1 hour workouts. I now have set myself a realistic exercise and diet plan. And it seems to be working. I am down 7 pounds in about three weeks.
    Tonight, I ate more than I planned. I was nervous it would bring on a binge episode - especially because I am alone in the house. However, I got, and stopped, when I felt full. I am unsure if that is something you've experienced - it seems when I binge that nothing fills me up, and while I know I am full, I still have the feeling of craving something more. Tonight - it was simply a matter of being hungry. I filled up on healthy foods - plain oatmeal and a banana - and feel satisfied.
    Good luck - and thanks for the post. I also really just want some support and excited to have that opportunity.