May 2014 was a turning point for me.....
IsMollyReallyHungry
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I was finally able to make head way getting back on track these last 2 weeks. Last month was a turning point for me. Since I gained so much last month, my goal now is just to keep using this group and the daily support to get back on track with as many binge free days as possible....
Not sure if I have shared this before with the group but my Mom has been fighting cancer off and on since 2005. She has been on chemo off and on for the last 3 plus years. Found out last month that the chemo has not really been helping the last year and doctor is thinking of taking her off it if not doing any good which is only logical. Well we have known she is terminal for some time now but it still does not help knowing your Mom is dying. Anyways, after I went with her to last visit to doctor I went on a serious bad binge for about 2 weeks and it could have been worse for sure.
Finally when I tipped the scale at 390+, reality check was done. I can never see 400+ on the scale again so I started eating better and taking care of me again. It would only make matter worse for me to be back in the 400's. I spent years in the 500's and even 600+ at my worse and can not go back to those weights ever again. NEVER. I went years without getting on scale or having a scale at home. I only brought a scale as a requirement from an awesome nurse in my bariatric program who insisted I get a scale immediately. That was the best advice anyone gave me on my journey. I went on the internet to look for a scale to weigh me since at that time I weighed over 600 pounds. So I found one and it was expensive so I told Tony I could not afford it and he told me yes I could and I was using excuses and that he was going to require I buy a scale before they would consider me for weight loss surgery. So in 2004 I paid over $100 for a scale that weigh up to 1000 pounds and I started weighing myself everyday as directed by Tony.
He told me I was always going to need a scale so I would never go into self denial again about my weight. and he said the scale is your friend no matter what it shows because a scale for me is the reality I need to face everyday to stay on track. He is right. For me I need to face the scale every day or most days. So now I never go 2 days without checking the scale. If I skip one day I make myself get on it the next day.
I am still doing WW and not going to stop going until I reach my goals. I am never going to give up on myself because I am worth it. It is not a contest and one day I will succeed!! I am just going to keep trying to make the right choices. If you took the time to read my ramblings and vent, thank you. I just like sharing because it helps me put my life and emotions and dreams in perspective.
Have a good week and keep reaching for the stars!! We can do this. Failure is for those who give up.....keep up the good work! :flowerforyou:
Not sure if I have shared this before with the group but my Mom has been fighting cancer off and on since 2005. She has been on chemo off and on for the last 3 plus years. Found out last month that the chemo has not really been helping the last year and doctor is thinking of taking her off it if not doing any good which is only logical. Well we have known she is terminal for some time now but it still does not help knowing your Mom is dying. Anyways, after I went with her to last visit to doctor I went on a serious bad binge for about 2 weeks and it could have been worse for sure.
Finally when I tipped the scale at 390+, reality check was done. I can never see 400+ on the scale again so I started eating better and taking care of me again. It would only make matter worse for me to be back in the 400's. I spent years in the 500's and even 600+ at my worse and can not go back to those weights ever again. NEVER. I went years without getting on scale or having a scale at home. I only brought a scale as a requirement from an awesome nurse in my bariatric program who insisted I get a scale immediately. That was the best advice anyone gave me on my journey. I went on the internet to look for a scale to weigh me since at that time I weighed over 600 pounds. So I found one and it was expensive so I told Tony I could not afford it and he told me yes I could and I was using excuses and that he was going to require I buy a scale before they would consider me for weight loss surgery. So in 2004 I paid over $100 for a scale that weigh up to 1000 pounds and I started weighing myself everyday as directed by Tony.
He told me I was always going to need a scale so I would never go into self denial again about my weight. and he said the scale is your friend no matter what it shows because a scale for me is the reality I need to face everyday to stay on track. He is right. For me I need to face the scale every day or most days. So now I never go 2 days without checking the scale. If I skip one day I make myself get on it the next day.
I am still doing WW and not going to stop going until I reach my goals. I am never going to give up on myself because I am worth it. It is not a contest and one day I will succeed!! I am just going to keep trying to make the right choices. If you took the time to read my ramblings and vent, thank you. I just like sharing because it helps me put my life and emotions and dreams in perspective.
Have a good week and keep reaching for the stars!! We can do this. Failure is for those who give up.....keep up the good work! :flowerforyou:
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Wow...I'm so sorry you are going through that with your mom. My mom passed away almost 6 years ago (in August) from a neuroendocrine tumor related to a family gene disorder. Caretaking and the mental anguish of a terminal illness can derail anyone's good eating. It looks like you have a great plan in place for getting back on track, though! I pray that you have strength to deal with your mother's illness while balancing your own life. Hang in there! You are a inspiration to many on here, me included!:flowerforyou:0
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I am so deeply sorry for what you are going through. I lost both of my parents to cancer. It is very hard to give your weight-control effort the attention it deserves during this process, and especially to not use it as an escape mechanism from your pain. First, please know that there are many people here who truly feel your pain in their hearts. Second, take all the help you can get through this. People will say, "Is there anything I can do?" and its easy to not take their help. Don't do that - reach out. Ask a WW friend to take a walk (and too bad if all you talk about is your mom!) Ask someone at work to help you out with things you might not normally ask for. Last, truly try to take it one day at a time. Cherish the moments with your mom. Take some time each week to cook up healthy meals and freeze them. Spend the money at the expensive supermarket salad bar to bring home a healthy meal. And whatever else you do, don't be afraid to see a counselor or professional to help you find some kind of balance and peace. {{{Hugs!}}}0
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Thanks friend!!Wow...I'm so sorry you are going through that with your mom. My mom passed away almost 6 years ago (in August) from a neuroendocrine tumor related to a family gene disorder. Caretaking and the mental anguish of a terminal illness can derail anyone's good eating. It looks like you have a great plan in place for getting back on track, though! I pray that you have strength to deal with your mother's illness while balancing your own life. Hang in there! You are a inspiration to many on here, me included!:flowerforyou:0 -
Thanks so much for your recommendations, I will remember to do this.I am so deeply sorry for what you are going through. I lost both of my parents to cancer. It is very hard to give your weight-control effort the attention it deserves during this process, and especially to not use it as an escape mechanism from your pain. First, please know that there are many people here who truly feel your pain in their hearts. Second, take all the help you can get through this. People will say, "Is there anything I can do?" and its easy to not take their help. Don't do that - reach out. Ask a WW friend to take a walk (and too bad if all you talk about is your mom!) Ask someone at work to help you out with things you might not normally ask for. Last, truly try to take it one day at a time. Cherish the moments with your mom. Take some time each week to cook up healthy meals and freeze them. Spend the money at the expensive supermarket salad bar to bring home a healthy meal. And whatever else you do, don't be afraid to see a counselor or professional to help you find some kind of balance and peace. {{{Hugs!}}}0
